Karmic Relationship Recap……. The Sociopath

This past December, I wrote an article related to my experiences with karmic relationships.  Or as I’ve decided to call them, “The relationships that force inner work to be done”.  The article was by no means easy for me to write, and I was only able to laugh because of how much “suffering” occurred previously.   If you haven’t read the article, you can do so by clicking here

If you did read my December article, then you probably would of expected  me to lean my lesson, and stop interacting with such people.  Well what can I say, I can be awfully stubborn at times.  Today I’m going to share, the most recent interaction I had with one of the individuals I spoke about in my December article.  I will also share what occurred, to finally get me to see the “hard truth”.   As I stated prior, I will not use real names in these posts.

 

iSSIE tHE dOMINATE……hERE WE gO aGAIN:

                                        Photo by Artem Labunsky on Unsplash

 

I’m not going to spend a lot of time (if any), repeating information from my December article.  As such, If you want to know more about my previous interaction with Issie, I recommend you read my article .  Needless to say, there is a reason why I call her “Issie The Dominate”.   It’s important to mention again, that I never was in an intimate relationship with her, and thank God I wasn’t.   We were simply “friends” or “semi-friends”, but even that led to “charged” situations. 

Anyways in my previous article I indicated, that I told her I wouldn’t be continuing my interaction with her (for a number of reasons).  However,  like I typically did with her, I backed down, and continued  to communicate with her  after the New Year. 

Boy oh Boy!!!! Did I get bit in the ass for it too.  Issie has a way of getting in your head, and making it seem like she truly is your friend, but you’re more of a fad to her.  As she once told me, she made a guy cry during sex, and  described his tears as “big ole alligator tears”.  Or something along those lines.  She then told me how she basically left him like that.  When I asked what she did, she insisted she did nothing, and he had “fallen” for her.  Issie doesn’t do love,  she does lust, so if you make the mistake of showing her any emotion she will become distant.

Anyways, we continued to communicate into January, and our conversations ranged from dreams and metaphysics, to being a little flirty at times.   In one conversion, she told me she was upset she wasn’t married yet, and felt alone.  Less than a week later, she told me she wasn’t the marrying type, and that she wanted to be the girl men thought of when they were in a boring marriage years later.

She would continually want me to answer her questions, but would never answer anything I asked her of consequence.  If I mentioned something she didn’t approve of, I wouldn’t hear from her for a period of time.  She treated me pretty much like one of her submissive minions, and it generally annoyed me.   Eventually she would reach out to me, and say something sweet to me, or give me a complement.  But then the same behaviors would just repeat over and over.   

By the end of the month, I finally had enough and ended the friendship.  It wasn’t easy to do, and for awhile before hand, I seriously thought the issue was me.  I actually though It was my fault for being a nice person.   So when she disregarded me, I literally thought I was a bad person for having an emotional side.  I enjoy authentic conversation, which involves showing some emotion and asking genuine questions.   She always seemed to try and punish me for that.  

Which included disregarding how I felt, when she treated me like shit.  Anyways towards the end of the month, I was even having dreams, which where telling me I needed to separate from her.

Synchronicity began playing more of a role, and even when I pulled Rune stones there would be messages indicating it was time to separate.  On January 31,  I actually had a dream where she started blatantly treating me horrible, and when I awoke I found that “something” had turned the heat off in my house.  The switch on the thermostat had actually been moved to the “Off Position”.  This really got my attention, as it was freezing in my place.  The temperature had dropped to around 54 degrees in the house overnight.

This was the final “weird” synchronicity that caused me to say enough was enough.  I contacted her via her preferred method, and left her a message indicating that I was done.  I didn’t expect a response, because that would be to personal for her, and I didn’t get one.  But I knew she was well aware of my decision.

 

Maxim’s article on Sociopaths:

Roughly a week later, I was browsing the internet and came across a Maxim article written in 2014.  The article was entitled “10 Signs You’re Dating a Sociopath”.  To make things even better, the subtitle was “And the author should know – she is one”.   I read the entire article, and couldn’t believe how much it described Issie to a tee.  For every bullet point mentioned in the article, I could think of more than one occasion where Issie said or did something to earn her a tick on the Sociopath check list.  I’ll link the full article at the bottom of the post, but I’ll also provide brief examples of each bullet point made in the article.  This article specifically focuses on the female sociopath, thus why all the bullet points start with “She”. 

 

 

Sociopath Bullet Points:

 

1. She Will Be Eager to Data Mine You – Issie did this constantly, She  would always want you to talk about yourself, and would very rarely ever provide any information about herself.  If I asked anything that would shine light onto her personality specifically, she would not respond to me.  Often waiting a few days before responding by altering the topic we had been talking about.    Or by redirecting the conversation so she would be asking the questions again.  In one case she indicated, that she would rather I talk about myself instead of her talking.

 

2. She Will Be Everything You Want Her To Be –  Ding Ding Ding!!!! Issie would do her best to match your interests.  If you liked talking about Metaphysical topics (As it was the case for me), she presented herself as someone who loved the topics just as much as you.  I watched her change her personality as she interacted with other guys, and she always did it masterfully.  She was often curious about your most inner desires also, indicating that she would let guys “be themselves” with her, and that was what drove them to her.

 

3. She Will Be Charming Until She Isn’t – Ding!  She was always charming, until she either got bored of you, or you annoyed her.  She would later come back, to see if you would still talk to her, regardless of what had occurred with you and her.  She would even be so charming, that if she were to go out, multiple guys would show an interest in her, and she would eat it all up.  The next morning would be a different story however.  I witnessed her get a high from not responding to messages, and watching men squirm as they desperately tried to get her attention again.

 

4. She Will Always Want Something – With Issie it was mostly attention or Sex.  But what is Sex, but the ultimate form of attention.  She had no trouble getting what she wanted, and she was very good getting things indirectly.  Often thinking multiple steps in advance.  

 

5. She Will Remain Calm – She was almost always calm, even when she was annoyed or upset.  In fact I don’t recall anytime where she actually showed any true anger, she typically would rather disregard you if she was upset.  Never giving you a chance to communicate any frustration with her, and if you did you’d get the silent treatment until she wanted to talk again.

 

6. She Will Give Zero Shits – DING!  she even indicated this to me a number of times.  Often saying something along the lines of  “If someone doesn’t want to interact with me because of blah… That’s their issue”.  Keep in mind the issue may be she directly did something hurtful to them.  Giving zero shits is putting it mildly. 

 

7. She Will Be Great in Bed – Issie indicated this to me, so many times I have lost tract.  Often telling me how she loved controlling the male orgasm, verbalizing how wonderful her pu*** was.  Or telling me about how she liked it in bed.  I actually pissed her off once, by saying Love and Lust were not synonymous.  I thought her eyes were going to bust into fireballs, and she was going to  Hadouken me into oblivion.

 

8.  She Will Be Emotionally Unavailable – She was never emotionally available, not even in conversation.  One particular time really stands out to me.  She was supposed to be home watching and caring for her family’s elderly dog.  But because she wanted to go out with her boyfriend at the time, she ended up packing the dog into the car and making it go out with her.  Sweet isn’t she?  I heard about this from one of my friends, as she had the dog with her when she visited him.

 

9. She Will Be Hard to Describe – Everything about Issie is hard to describe.  From look, to personality, and if you try and analyze her you’ll be in for a task.

 

10. She Will Be Unclear About Her Past – Again she doesn’t like talking about herself.  In fact she as I indicated above she will avoid it.  As for her past, she only will share parts that entrance you, or if they are relevant  to her goals.  Whatever they may be.

 

 

Needless to say, when I read Maxim’s article it hit me like a ton of bricks.  Issie was a Sociopath, and everything she did made sense to me now.  I have to admit, I was taken back.  I wasn’t expecting it to be true, mainly because of how much of a soft spot I had for her.  AND despite everything, I still wanted her to have a happy fulfilling life.  Yet I knew that I would never be able to interact with her again, as long as she behaved in such a manor. 

And that ladies and gents, is how it ended.  

 

https://www.maxim.com/maxim-man/10-signs-youre-dating-sociopath

 

 

 

 

    

 

It’s Always a Personal Journey:

Cutting karmic relationships from our lives is never easy, but it’s most certainly necessary for growth to take place.  Otherwise stressful patterns will constantly repeat, as you go about your daily routine, and believe you me they will find ways to make you as uneasy as possible.  At least this how it has played out in my own life.   

That’s right, this is one of those posts where I specifically talk about my personal experiences.  While I plan on making this as humorous as possible, I want you to know that while I can laugh at these experiences now, they were often beyond stressful to work through.  In all honesty, some of the experiences I will discuss today are still “Raw”,  but writing is an outlet that I use to communicate,  and laugh about my own stupidity at times.

So lets get into it shall we, but before we do, click here for a list of the indicators you’re in a Karmic Relationship.  I should note, it’s only a basic list.  Karmic relationships vary in intensity, and the specifics of the “Karmic Connection” are often diverse. 

 

 

Ending The “Lisa & Tyler” RELATIONSHIPs:

 

If you’re familiar with the  “V”  reboot  that took place in 2009, then you’ll know what the “Lisa & Tyler” relationship was.   You may even be shaking your head, saying, “Poor Tyler……”.    If you’re not familiar with the series, then I recommended you check it out.  Although the reboot only lasted two seasons, it contained a lot of “Easter Eggs”…  One being, physical beauty doesn’t represent the soul.  This is especially true for “Anna”, who plays Lisa’s mother in the series.  She is a looker, but it only runs skin deep, she’s also an evil ass biatch.  Lisa ultimately is the victim of group agenda,  but she still has some predator in her.

Anyways why did I reference this?  I’ll tell you why, because the “Lisa & Tyler” relationship describes the types of women I’ve found interesting over and over again, and yes it has always bitten me in the ass.  Luckily I’ve never been in an intimate relationship with any of these women, but trust me their sting still burns.  This is the part, where I start talking specifics, so naturally I will be changing names too keep the identities secrete. 

Be sure to look for those  “Lisa/ Tyler” themed characteristics, some may include the following…. The Mysterious Girl, The Bad Girl, Extreme Physical Beauty, Alternate Agendas, and Sociopathic behavior.  Regardless of characteristics, they all had the ability to leave you feeling the below…….. Again more “V” Themed media.

 

 

 

Cutting Karmic RELATIONSHIPS, Issie The DOMINATE:

I’m going to work in reverse order, that way I’ll be sure to get though my most recent history :).  Issie is a young beautiful women, who in addition to her beauty is able to hold a conversation related to just about any topic.  Her intelligence almost comes off as  mysterious and to be fair she does have many good qualities.  But she is someone who knows how to manipulate,  and due to her own wounds has avoided emotional connection as much a possible.  That doesn’t stop her from behaving in a seductive lustful manner, when she “wants some”.  

I meet Issie through a friend a few years back, and immediately was drawn to her “vibe”.  I found her interesting, and as indicated above she was very beautiful.  We didn’t say much to each other on the day we met, but shortly afterward we begun communicating via a social networking application…. No it was not Facebook.  Our conversations mostly focused on atypical topics such as, Tarot, Numerology, and other metaphysical things.

It wasn’t long until we were texting with the occasional phone call.  We would often text until the early hours of the morning, and I would be beyond tired from lack of sleep.  We even would hang out every now and again, but as I indicated above these were not intimate relationships.

You see, in this particular Karmic pattern, I have let women of this type walk all over me, use my emotional support for friendship, but at the same time pretty much treat me like shit.

Issie was very dominate, she would go out and loved to get the attention from guys.  Often her cell phone would be constantly a buzz with texts from whoever see interacted with the night before.  Issie would then like to keep her “Read Receipts” on, so everyone who sent her a text would know when she read their message.  She would then take joy in watching how guys would respond, if she didn’t respond to their texts, after they knew she had seen their message.

Yes, she actually admitted this to me during a conversation with her.  Yet she’d  be furious if you dared not answer her in complete sentences when she took the time to respond.

Another theme with Issie, was she treated people like they were “the flavor of the week”.  If she made plans to do something with you, but at the last second an opportunity arose where she could hang out with someone else who she “liked more”, she would ditch your ass  faster than a progressive ditches a Trump hat.  This happened a lot when I interacted with her.

In one instance I had planned to go running at a local state park, and she indicated she wanted to go.  So being a nice guy I switched my planes around to involve her.  I kid you not, like the next day she told me about her plans to hang out with another guy, during the time when I was supposed to be picking her up to go run.  When I brought this to her attention, she pretty much laughed in my face.  She found is extremely  humorous, that I would even call her out on her shit.  Of course did I lean my lesson….. Of course not.

This continued to occur.  In perhaps the most  hilarious instance, she told me she wanted to attend a Medium Message Circle with some of my friends and family.  I counted her in, and made sure to keep asking if she was sure she wanted to go.  She constantly confirmed she was coming, up to the day before.  On the day of the event, she sent us a message saying she couldn’t  come, because she had fallen asleep and woke up less than an hour before the event started.  Here is the hilarious part, she sent us a text of her laying on a bed, but she didn’t realize we could tell she clearly was in a dude’s bedroom.

I was furious, and I was also an idiot because I made an excuse for her behavior.  Another  classic one occurred, when she sent me a text while I was taking a final exam.  And wanted to hang out, and work on meditation.  I told her I could do it once I was done taking my test, and I made plans to pick her up that afternoon.  As I was leaving to get her, I sent her a text to let her know I was on my way.  She infamously responded,  that she had started painting her bedroom and couldn’t hang out.  I couldn’t make this shit up.  I naturally didn’t believe her, but she sent me a picture of her painting her room….

One thing I learned not to do, was show Issie too many emotions, she would go out of her way to reject them, and then argue the counter.   I thought she was going to eat my soul when we got into a debate on the concept of Love vs. Lust.  

Despite all of this, and more (don’t have enough time to go through it all) I remained “friends” with her.  Although I have not seen her in person in over two years.  However, I’ve realized more and more, I want more authentic friendships.  I don’t want to be communicating to someone via email or text, especially is you live within 30 minutes of me (which is the case here).  I indicated this to her, and even made one last attempt to pursue a true friendship with her.  Her response was, her telling me she was going to disregard my attempt.   Thus I let her know, I will no longer be maintaining “email communication” after the new year.  I totally expect her to disregard that as well.  I’m done with disrespecting myself by letting people treat me in such a way.

Within minutes of making the decision, I was greeted be the synchronistic “4:44” message on both of my kitchen clocks.  

 

Cutting Karmic RELATIONSHIPS, Kelly the AIM GIrl:

This next one  initially started over 10 years ago, and boy of boy should I have learned.  One evening during my senior year of college, I was busy working on finals, and at the same time had been monitoring the AIM chat rooms for sport.  I used to enjoy reading what others were talking about in them, although I rarely contributed myself.  

Anyways out of the blue, one of the AIM users sent me a message, and we started chatting.  I know what some of you are probably thinking, “AIM, come on man, you never know who you’re truly talking too”.  I suppose this is true, but it didn’t stop me from having a conversation at the time.  Needless to say over a long period we shared more info about each other, including pictures (normal pictures).  As a result I was confident that who I was talking to was really a girl from Chicago.  It just wasn’t the picture, but how they talked and communicated.  I could tell it wasn’t some 50 year old guy living in their mother’s basement.

Kelly was a senior in HS at the time, so I was 4-5 years older than her.  Which didn’t bother me, as our conversations were never inappropriate, again these were “friendships”.   She asked me a lot of questions about college, and what to expect, as well as what major I was.  She had a similar interest, so we hit it off.  Over the course of the summer, we talked constantly on AIM, as well as exchanged emails.  This continued right up until mid 2016.   Yes, we communicated for years.

Like Issie, Kelly loved attention, she once said to me something along the lines of  “I like talking to you, because you make me feel better about myself”.  She even went as far to she loved me, the summer we first started talking, and I didn’t know how to take that.  Although I will admit, I felt like I knew her from another time.  Yeah I know, most would find that weird.

What I believe she loved, was the idea of me.  She liked being able to talk to someone who was genuinely nice.  Naturally I began to become found of her, and really wanted to get to know her more.  I suggested we talk on the phone, or perhaps meet.  This was of course after years of talking.  However, like Issie she didn’t want to, and responded by saying “what would her parents think”.  Of course my feelings were hurt, it was obvious that she only was talking to me because it served as an escape of whatever she had going on in her life.

Eventually she even used me to talk about her BF she ended up with (again this was sometime after we first met).  I was so nice, I still was willing to talk to her about anything.  Eventually her and the BF broke up, and she really started talking to me again via email.  But she didn’t want to ever break from the email communication (from what I could tell).  I eventually realized I wasn’t being treated nicely and ended the communication.

 

Cutting Karmic Relationships, Peslie The Queen BEe:

This last relationship I’m going to talk about today, occurred when I was  in HS.   During my HS days, I used to play a lot of video games, and when I say a lot I mean countless hours.  One favorite of mine was the “Command and Conquer” series, which pitted payers against each other as they built up their military bases and then tried to take out other players.

I used to play the game over a dial up connection, with a few others who lived in another state.  You gotta love the gaming community, you meet a lot of interesting people.  Anyways I met Peslie through a mutual gaming friend, she wasn’t a gamer, but she was friends with one of the people I played online with.  Once I had a cable internet connection, I would often talk on to the people I was playing with, or use another device to do so.  I even talked on the phone with my gaming buddy, and Peslie via three way chat a few times.  My friend had a huge crush on her, and would often talk to me about her.  Peslie was a beauty (just like Kelly and Issie), but she was also a tad dominate.  I used to joke, that she would “eat your soul” if you pissed her off, and trust me she got pissed at me a number of times.

Peslie and I didn’t communicate directly for some time, but over the course of a number of years we got comfortable with texting and talking on the phone.  She had a strong southern accent and loved to say “Yall”.  It was a cute accent though, and it always made me laugh.  Again Peslie  and I were just friends, and she liked to talk to me because I was able to calm her down when she was upset.  Eventually my gaming buddy lost interest in her, and that devastated her.  She never really gave him the time of day, but once she was off his radar, it hurt her.  I used to listen to her cry on the phone at times, and vent about the situation.  

It was a very emotionally charged situation when this occurred.   Eventually Peslie became interested in other guys and we would only really talk when she needed to vent.  I was someone she could talk to who was safe.  When she didn’t need that outlet, I hardly heard from her.  Eventually she stopped talking to me altogether, and I can only assume she had finally found herself in a enjoyable situation and no longer needed my “friendship”.  Of course this made me feel like crap, but eventually It didn’t bother me.  Maybe if it had, I wouldn’t of repeated the situation over and over again.

 

Cutting Karmic RELATIONSHIPS, in conclusion:  

As I indicated in the beginning of this post, cutting karmic relationships is always a personal journey.  It is never easy, and it has to be done with care.  Some of you may be saying to yourselves, “Damn dude, it took you a long time to see the pattern”.  To this I would say, it took me a long time to accept that the pattern existed.  These are not the only people where this pattern, or a similar one repeated.  But they are some of the “Classics”.   I was well aware of the pattern by the time I got to Issie, but I kept telling myself “things would be different”.   I now know they will never be different until I resolve the Karmic pattern.  Part of that  involves having more respect for myself, and letting go of the “Lisa & Tyler” types of relationships.    

Only then will more authentic relationships take there place, and this is where I want to be heading.  On a final note, I want to make it clear that I don’t hold anger towards any of the individual’s I mentioned today.  If I hold anything, it is frustration towards myself for not acting sooner.  The people I’ve talked about, have allowed me to see the pattern, and have given me the chance to resolve it once and for all.  As a result I have no doubt, I will be listening to the below, on my way home.

 

    

Happy Halloween…Creature Feature…

Earlier this month I posted an atypical Halloween post, one that came to fruition after months of watching many individuals fall into the “conformity trap”,  and defend it without actually giving any thought to the contrary.  However, it was by no means the type of post I like to do, especially before  Halloween.  Therefore as we are only a couple days from the spookiest night of the year, I thought I would write a more traditional Halloween article.

 

This article  relates to a previous article I wrote regarding etheric parasites earlier this year, and you can read that article by clicking here.   Today I’m going to talk about my personal experiences, with once such type of entity.  This type of entity, or behavior that an entity may align towards, may spark a curiosity in young men who for one reason or another, have Sexual desire on their mind more than the average person.   That’s right ladies and gents, this Halloween’s creature feature….. Is the Succubus.  

 

 

How Long Can you Resist Me?

The Succubus- Jennifer's Body

Promo Wallpaper Image for Jenifer’s Body:

If you know your succubus mythology, then you are probably aware that in “modern” times they are considered to be nothing,  but the result of “uneducated”  minds of the distant past who didn’t understand the workings of their own body.  One common theme being, monks who attempted to live a life of  celibacy would blame their sexual dreams and nocturnal discharges on a succubus.  Additionally in the middle ages, they were viewed as a extremely evil and malevolent demon, while today they have been romanced by pop-culture.  For example, the image above relates to the 2009 blockbuster Jennifer’s Body.  If you would like to read some more on the mythology of the succubus, click the text highlighted in yellow above.

 

One thing I’ve noticed many times over, is these beings are attracted to sexual energy, either repressed or very active.  In my case, I was a very shy and often awkward individual growing up.   This  was amplified by my natural psychic ability which started at a very young age.  As such, I was often on edge more than most,  when I was around the opposite sex.  As I got older I had a strong sexual energy, (it even shows up in my Astrology chart, which is humorous to me).  But because I haven’t acted on it, which would provide an healthy outlet (I’m talking normal sexual activity here, not being a man whore), I broadcast it other places.  Often when I sleep, or am in other levels of reality.  

In my teenage years, I would often manifest sexual partners when I was in lucid dreams.  However even in dreams I would get nervous at times, which would cause me to wake up instantly before anything happened.   Overtime I began to notice that some of my “dream characters” seemed to be off in some way.  They were too independent from my dream, and at times appeared to be waiting for me to acknowledge them before they would interact with me.  Are you seeing the Law of Free Will being satisfied here?     

Eventually I began to wake up in the middle of  “a dream’s ” sexual experience, and would physically feel someone in my bed touching me.   At times I would even see a female looking being in my room.  I was blown away by the revelation, and although I found the experience  energizing at times, I was also concerned.   Naturally when I became aware of what was occurring, I would resist more than I would when I was dreaming.  Which led to this being  saying “How long do you think you can resit me?”  My response almost came too naturally, as If I knew what was playing out.     

 

I Could Make You Feel Good:

In early interactions I was very curious, and to be honest these beings can be very difficult to resist.  As not only do they ramp up your sexual desires, by employing psychic techniques, but you often feel their excitement and desire as they do it.  Eventually this will leave you wondering if you’re really feeling your own sexual desire.

Sex is a powerful gateway and although we really have no clue what is possible with it,  there is a reason why inter-dimensional  beings will “feed” off it.  To put it bluntly Sexual Vampirism is a real thing, and should be taken seriously.  

Another “one liner” that  was said to me when I was in a lucid dream state, occurred  after a period when I was fantasizing a lot about a girl I was attracted to.  In the dream, the girl was sitting on a couch, in sexual clothing.  She made a move towards me and I said, “You’re not her”.  Indicating I knew that she wasn’t what she seemed.  The response I got, went something like this, “Does it matter?  I can make you feel good”.  Of course sexual talk is key for these beings, I’ve heard things like “Come to bed, F*** me, I want your d***, and others over the years.  Yes, I said years…you need to be aware that a moments thought goes a long way in the inter-dimensional world.  Now that does not mean, these beings are constantly hovering over you shoulder,  but as long as the interaction is authorized, they will visit again and again, even if long periods of time pass in between visits. 

 

What do you mean Authorized?

Yes I brought up something, that many don’t like to hear when they are experiencing something  they dislike.  In my case, there were periods where I would get annoyed when I would get these often overwhelming visits.  A few times I was very upset, and wondered why they kept occurring.   Around the peak of the visits, I was told by one of my guides, that they were occurring because I wanted them to.”

Of course I was annoyed with this information, at least at first, but then I understood it.  Part of me actually did want it to occur.  As I would often lay in bed at night, wondering what an extreme orgasm would feel like with an mysterious seductive woman.  Of course every thought is picked up by something, and through cosmic law, you reap what you sow.   

Periods in which I made it clear, I didn’t want something like that to occur, nothing would happen.  In some cases I would become aware of “Her”  presence in my room, but because I didn’t authorize the interaction “She” didn’t  attempt to “seduce me”.   Instead she would leave or stay put in the event that I did authorize the interaction. 

This leads me to another important point, Inter-dimensional beings can only do to you, what you let them.  The idea that “You Have No Power”, or “No Say” is the illusion.  In reality, you have all the power.  it’s funny how modern religion often brain washes you into giving away all your power.   Entities cannon’t bother you if you don’t authorize it.  However  behaviors also act as authorization, so if you’re going around sleeping with endless numbers of people, don’t be surprised when you pick something up.  I actually know people who do this, and they also have entities feeding off their sexual energy.  I even had someone tell me once, that they didn’t like how “easy” they become at times, and It often came out of nowhere for them.

 

When It Comes From Nowhere:

When a thought of a feeling comes from nowhere, it’s best to ask yourself where the thought or feeling is coming from.  The thoughts you have, are not necessary your own.  Even if you hear them in your own “inner voice”.  If there is a entity sending you their thoughts and feelings, they will reflect the type of energy they are trying to get from you.  

In the case of the Succubus, its mostly about sexual energy, as I indicated above.  Other entities prefer other types of energy, and the “random thoughts” will be different.  In my case it was all about Sex, I could be reading a book outside in my hammock, and all of a sudden would get hit with a extreme lustful feelings.  Since I’m a clairvoyant, I naturally visualize anything I think of very easy.  So for me, I would be visualizing all sorts of random sexual imagery, and it would be related to my subconscious desires.   Yes these beings know your every “kink” and desire, and they will capitalize on them.  They don’t turn you into anything, but like any entity they poke what is already within you, in an attempt to being it out.

When I thought about the random feelings, and was mindful of what may have been going on, they often quickly went away.  Yet there were other times, when I was like “F*** it, time for some personal time”.  Giving in often leads to guilt based feelings, which only makes you feel worse.  Additionally guilt  puts you at the mercy of other beings.  I found that when I accepted myself, regardless of the thoughts I was experiencing, I could not be controlled by these beings.  I even made it a running joke, especially when I would awake from a sexual themed dream that I knew was not my own doing.  I’d say to myself something like, “OK, that dream was intense I need to deal with this”, instead of feeling like a victim.  

 

 

Physical Effects Of Entity Feeding:

I can only speak to what I’ve experienced, but wouldn’t be surprised if others have experienced the same type of things.   I’ve personally have had back issues for the last 10 years, and they are a common theme in my family.  We have a history of Back and Hip issues.  I’ve personally noticed when I caught something feeding on my energy, they would often be within my own energetic field, near the Chakra point of interest.   

I’ve actually have had experiences, where I’ve semi-awoken from a dream state, became aware of an attachment, and then reached into my own own energetic field and pulled the entity out.  When I did this I was hit with an overwhelming feeling of anxiety, and would often be shown clairvoyant imagery that was intended to distract me from my goal.  The anxiety  comes from  the entity,  knowing they have been discovered.  In some cases, the attaching or feeding entity would fight back,  trying to hold onto my field.

Every time I was successful,  just about all the discomfort I was having in that particular part of my body would be gone.   In areas where genetic defects were, such as in my back, my discomfort was reduced greatly.  

The succubus generally aims for the Chakra around the genitals, and I’ve a number of experiences  where I’ve been brought almost to orgasm after waking up from a sexual dream, to feel a severe electric stimulus around my sexual organs.   In some cases, you could latterly feel the sensation of oral sex, or being straddled.  These were not phantom sensations, you could see additional mass to the areas in question.  In one instance, I awoke from a dream.  where a girl was forcing me to give her oral, only to find myself doing that to an “invisible” person in my bed.  When I awoke, I felt a women pushing their genitals in my face, and I even felt them contract when they climaxed…. You could even taste them.  This was not phantom anything.

Needless to say, the more you go along with it, the more “physical” they will become because your  fields are coming into sync  with  each other.  Thus the non-physical becomes more physical.  Its like forming a bridge.

 

Their  Beauty IS  Anything That you Want:

The Succubus is a shape-shifter , becoming anything you want.  This is what makes them so alluring, they will present themselves in the way you desire.  Just like in the movie Decoys, which featured sex craved aliens who would act out their victim’s fantasies.   Make sure you check for bellybuttons on attractive girls ;)……. It’s a movie reference.

Shape-shifter you say, does that include “gender”?  Yes it does, and that opens up a whole other can of worms, which I won’t go into here, but needless to say they can appear to be male or female.  Thus the Succubus and Incubus are not separate entities….. Again it has to do with what you desire. 

In the dreamscape these beings can pass for anyone, and in most cases they will be attractive.  However if you were to be awake and have a telepathic thought form sent to you by these beings.  The image you see would probably be a projection of what they want you to see.  In these instances I’ve seen a women with human like characteristics, but they weren’t perfectly human.  They would have fangs or sharp teeth, like a creature.  In some instances they would even have reptilian features….. However no matter the look,  they always projected an alluring vibe.

 

Collective Influence:

I’m going to conclude this post, with an interesting idea.  One that I’ve often wondered about, but haven’t reached a final decision on as of yet.  I have personally experienced what I believe to be the “collective influence” of these beings.  Meaning they are influencing  multiple people around them, to interact for some reason.  Probably for an energetic result.  In my case, there is someone who I find very attractive who lives close to me.  To a degree where I’ve fantasized about having sex with them, up against the back end of my house.

I’m very aware that the succubus that visits knows about this fantasy.  What I find interesting is, there was a number of times that I was doing work around my house, and felt like I was being stared at.  When I looked around,  the individual who I found attractive would be looking towards my direction, almost like they new what I thought.  I’ve often wondered if different entities could be trying to get  the fantasy to play out.  Or perhaps the fantasy comes from the other person in general.  Again these are only ideas, I have no idea if this is actually occurring.  

 

IN Closing:

In closing ladies and gents, be careful on what you focus your sexual energy on.  As there are always beings who are hungry for it, and will use you as a battery, regardless of your beliefs.  Personally I’ve learned a lot from my Succubus experiences, and I overall don’t hold anger or animosity  towards “Her”.  In my case, I believe my fear to trust anyone enough to have a holistic relationship with has manifested my current situation.   That is the lesson for me, once I go beyond  my comfort level, the experiences will have served their purpose I believe ,and will come to an end.  Anyways be sure to have a safe and fun Halloween………

 

 

 

 

“They Live” IN Plain Sight:

   Scene From John Carpenter’s “They Live”:

The experience I’m going to share today, occurred a number of years ago, and took place in a location that  completely caught me off guard.  Before I go full throttle into the experience, I want to once again pay homage to  John Carpenter’s “They Live”.  

If you’ve never seen the film, I recommend you take some time to watch it.  It’s truly a masterpiece, especially with how much is disclosed in it.  One such theme being, that there is an elite bloodline of non-human origins controlling human society for their benefit.  I won’t go into further details, but I spoke about “They Live”  back in May.  Feel free to take a look at the post that is linked below for more details.

My Red Pill Movie List

 

 

Some Background information:

Now on to my experience.  As I indicted above, this took place a number of years ago, and caught me completely off guard.  During the period in question, I  had been doing a lot of research regarding the “Anunnaki” and other “non-human” groups.  Additionally,  I had recently graduated from school with a degree in Computer Science, which led to me taking a job with a local defense contractor.

My typical week would be spent working a “9-5” type of job, and then during the evening I would try to spend as much time possible focusing on my other interests.  Let me be clear, I do not believe this experience had anything to do with my employment choice at the time, as I was having atypical experiences for many years prior.  However I did have others during the same time period, that occurred while I was traveling for work, and I will share them another time.

Also one of my friends at the time, was telling me about experiences they had been having for many years.  Some of which included being  followed by a mysterious group of individuals, all of which who had blonde hair and blue eyes.  If that isn’t enough to creep you out, my friend also talked about how they would come home to find odd objects left in their house, indicating that someone had been there.  Again, I don’t want to get side tracked, but I wanted to give a little background information on what  was going on in my life when this experience occurred. 

 

ETs In Wegmans?

Anyways, one of the local grocery stores that was in my neighborhood at the time was Wegmans.   If you’re not familiar with them, they are a supermarket chain that inhabits the Mid-Atlantic and New England regions of the country. 

One weekend I had decided to accompany my mother to our local Wegmans.  While most stores in our area were overly lavish and extremely modern, the one closest to use had yet to be updated, which gave it a look from a previous decade.  Yet the store did a lot of business, and was often overflowing with shoppers racing around with their carts, as they as they hurried to get in and out as quickly as possible.  This Wegmans even had a small video store in it, which was located immediately inside the entrance.   Of course in recent years, this has probably been replaced with the more typical “Red Box”  machine.

As I progressed through the store, I had to constantly dodge and weave around other shoppers who were always overly distracted, usually by small children that were accompanying them.   In some instances I would have to “squeeze”, past two shoppers who thought it was appropriate to block overly narrow isles while they conversed.  You don’t know how many times, I wanted to attach a cowcatcher and a 100 decibel horn to front of my cart during my weekend grocery store incursions.

Needless to say I was thrilled when we reached checkout isles, even though you typically had a sizable line to wait in.  As I stood waiting to checkout, I was suddenly stuck with what could only be described as a “telekinetic” wack to the back of my head.  Followed by a profound chill and tingling sensation going up my spine.  Additionally the words “Anunnaki, Anunnaki,Anunnaki” kept repeating in my mind.

Not knowing why this was occurring, I started to look around in a frantic motion, and was shocked when I saw a very tall women standing and glaring at me from another near by checkout isle.  She wore clothing that appeared to be very expensive, and it covered most of her features.  She had deep icy blue eyes, and they sent a chill through me as she stared at me.  When I made eye contact with her, I  heard a thought in my own voice say “Impressive”.  

As I started to advance in my checkout isle, she advanced in hers and never took her eyes off me.  In fact she didn’t even interact with anyone as she “checked out”.   There was what appeared to be a “butler” doing everything for her.  The height of this women also caught me by surprise.  She was visibly taller than everyone around her, and although she concealed her features well, she was extremely attractive.   So much so, it almost came off as a magnetic force.

As I approached the end of the check outline line, she was still glaring at me, and I found myself wanting to speak to her.  I actually started walking towards her, as made my way toward the store exit.   But before I reached her location, someone bumped  into me and stopped my advancement.  When I regained my composure, the women and “Butler” had vanished from the store.  Needless to say the experience left me shaken.

When I reflect on the experience now, I realize I may of had an experience with someone who was from one of the “Bloodline” families.   Who had more visible features of the beings from our past.  Or they could of been one of the human looking ETs, who can blend into our society more easily.  Either way the experience is one my more memorable ones, I hope you’ve enjoyed reading about it. 

 

 

 

  

 

 

                  

 

 

 

Etheric Parasites Part One:

In the Biological world parasitism is common place; our world is full of complex relationships, some are beneficial but many or are detrimental to a healthy lifestyle.  While many of us are familiar with more common parasitic organisms, such as tape worms or pubic lice, there is a much more rampant parasitic infestation plaguing human society.  Unfortunately, this infestation goes unnoticed by the majority of the population due to indoctrination into a Newtonian worldview.

While the Newtonian model has played a significant role creating our “modern” technological society, it has also resulted in the creation of a rigid, mostly inflexible scientific process.  Whereby theory is mistaken for absolute truth, and is beyond reproach.  As as result, parasitic beings that reside outside the confines of the Newtonian model, have been able to thrive by “feeding” of an unaware human population.

While it’s not uncommon for a percentage of a population, to scoff at information that calls into question its predominate society’s beliefs, a quick look at history shows us that belief structures change. With that being said, history also shows us that at one point Etheric parasitism was well known about, and is still discussed in esoteric communities today.

 

 

My Early Awakening:

 

 

My first profound psychic experience occurred when I was a young child, and was the catalyst for the beginning of my awakening.  While I wasn’t able to make much sense of the experiences until I was considerably older, there was an overwhelming feeling they were natural abilities that everyone should be having, not the exception.

The “early days” of my awakening were full of confusion, and an inability to find the precise words to convey what I was experiencing.  None the less that didn’t take away from the awe of the experiences, and regardless of what others may have thought I knew what was occurring was real.

Out of body experiences, telepathic commutation, clairvoyant experiences, emphatic intuition, and prophetic dreams were all part of my awakening.  I remember one of my first conscious out of body experiences in great detail, where I actually willed myself out of my body during a meditative episode. I recall the experience blow in more detail.

I had awoken earlier than normal, on a particularity calm Saturday morning, and decided to take advantage of the opportunity by sitting in my living room and trying to meditate.  Instead of trying to sit in any type of “lotus” stance I simply sat in a reclining chair and laid back in comfortable position.  After what was probably 45 – 60 minutes I felt myself separating from my physical body.  I then “stood up” and looked back to see my physical body still in the chair. I walked though my living room, into the kitchen, and then walked right through our back door onto the back deck. The light and colors outside were much more vivid and alive. Everything felt alive, and there was a profound sense of purpose everywhere I looked”.

In a separate experience, I remember walking out my front door, into what was a different period. It was as if I entered a plane that was brilliant with colors and nature hummed with a intense vibration.

As I was standing in my house, in an out of body form, I decided to walk outside. As I exited my front door, I found not a modern side street lined with houses, but a massive golden field of plants.  It looked like I was in a different period. I watched a couple of kids run through the fields laughing and enjoying themselves. Their clothes seemed odd, and out of place. The sky was a brilliant color , and there was a extremely bright light that surrounded everything. If it came from the Sun, it was much brighter than the Sun I was familiar with. The children couldn’t see me, and I floated along just as an awareness. I then focused my attention to higher realms and ascended into the sky, as I appeared to move through the dimension I eventually found myself watching what appeared to be Aura colors flying around me, this lasted a few moments before I found myself standing in a location where some of my soul group met. Everything was peaceful, and I didn’t want the experience to end. However, eventually it did, and I found myself back in my body.

 

The Glass Ceiling:

I would love to tell you, that every awakening experience I’ve had was like the above, but I would be lying if I did. What I can say is that every experience has taught me something.  Even experiences that were negative have taught me valuable lessons. One of of the most important has been called “The Glass Ceiling Effect” by some. Simply put every thought you have, every action you take, no matter how alone you may think you are when they take place is known about to beings who exist in “higher” “densities/dimensions”, and who have gone well beyond our current level of existence. This is true for beings we would consider positive, and for beings who we would consider negative”.

Additionally you cannot judge a book by it’s cover, meaning you cannot determine agenda or polarity by “what one looks like”. We currently do this now in our 3D society, and it has really held us back when it comes to realizing we are all one. I’ve observed beings who be are very different in appearance, but were extremely kind and gentle. I’ve also observed extremely attractive beings who where very manipulative and self centered.  Determining polarity has to be done carefully, and involves using your intuition, not making the determination based on visual stimuli.

It’ s also important to realize, that your emotional state plays a part in determining what types of experiences you’ll have, and whom you’ll have them with.  If you’re stressed, mad, upset, overworked, or displaying any emotional state that makes you feel not at ease you will attract beings that enjoy that type of energy.  If you are in a positive emotional state, you reduce the chances of getting the attention of nasty parasitic entities.  However remember, the inter-dimensional word is massive, filled with numerous beings and civilizations.  As a result if you’re going to interact with the inter-dimensional world be prepared to have a variety of experiences.

 

The Typical Parasitic Entity:

The typical parasitic entity, is one that predominantly resides in what many have called the Etheric plane. It’s considered to be a plane close to our physical world, but is not visible to the psychical eyes. These entities will often will be drawn to a person who is producing the type of energy they like, and then they milk them for all they are worth.  Many of them like chaotic energy, and thus will find people who have some form of chaos in their lives.

It may an addiction of some kind, a belief structure that causes the individual stress, or other lifestyles that are not beneficial to the individual.  Fear, anger, and shame are three of the emotional states that these entities really enjoy. So you can imagine what our society looks like to these beings currently.  It’s one giant buffet. In fact I would argue, everyone walking around the modern world, has had a least minor interactions with these types of beings.

When these particular entities “find a target” they will generally follow them around, and feed off their energy.  In some cases, they dine and dash, and in other they may continually visit the individual for a meal. This is especially true if the individual is continually producing the energy they like.  In some cases these beings will begin to send telepathic messages to their target, in hopes of having the individual act in a way they generates the energy they like.  In most cases, these messages will take the form of “random thoughts” or “thoughts that are atypical” for the individual.  What is confusing, is the telepathic message, will be in the target’s own “inner voice”, which often results in the individual thinking, “Why would I think that”. In some cases the “thoughts” that they think are their own, may be disturbing to the individual and cause a great deal of distress.

I cringe when I think of, how much negative human behavior may be attributed to this type of parasitism.  However, in my opinion these entities can only “poke” behaviors that exist somewhere within you, they cannot give you something that doesn’t already exist.

These entities do have a form, but it is not physical. It’s more of energetic mass, that often appears to have tendril like arms, but in many cases they can present themselves as a variety of other forms.  Some of which may appear humanoid, but in my experiences the humanoid form they present themselves as, seems off in some way. Again using your intuition is always key, when determining what you’re dealing with.

 

Dealing With Parasites:

I’m going to go into more details in part two of this article, but I didn’t want to leave you hanging.  In my opinion, if you think you’ve been host to a parasitic entity, don’t freak out.  Just about all of us in our modern society has been at some point. The point of me writing this article, is not to have you laying in bed with one eye open, afraid the fall asleep because you think a parasitic being is going to pay you a visit. The point is to help others become more aware. Knowing that these type of beings exist, is a first step. The second step is to become more aware about how your thoughts and feels influence your daily life.  Once you start to truly know yourself, you’re able to begin healing your “inner wounds”, and thus are no longer able to be battery for beings that exist outside the Newtonian box.  In lamest terms, these beings leave you alone because they are not able to feed off your energy.

 

More To Come:

In part two, I’ll share some of my personal experiences with these entities, as well as some additional methods I’ve used to deal with them.  Until then I hope you’ve enjoyed this article, and feel free to comment below. Cheers.