The Twin Flame Journey Continues

There are some topics that are so profound, so unbelievably powerful, that I’m slow to bring them up.  If you’ve been following this blog, you probably know I talk about “out there topics”.  Ranging from personal experiences with different types of beings, to ESP, to current events.  Obviously some topics are more “out there” than others.  However, when it comes to intensity, nothing is more profound than The Twin Flame Journey.  I’ve only discussed the topic one other time.  If you would like some background information, you can read my earlier post by clicking here.  

In this post, I’m going to focus on the lessons I’ve learned from interacting with my twin, as well as the ups and downs of our journey thus far.  The Twin Flame Journey is not for the faint of heart, and anyone who has met their true twin knows this.  That being said, I’ve seen a lot of people posting online, that they’ve met their twin, and it has always been rainbows, sunshine, and unicorns prancing through divine bliss.  When I read things like that, I want to puff up my face like Jiggly Puff, and double slap them into next week.  Sorry bro, that probably isn’t your twin if that’s the case.  They could be a different type of soulmate , but they’re not your twin in my opinion.  A little Pokemon humor to break the ice :).

 

 

 

 

 

 

When We First Met….Again

I recognized my twin for the first time (in this life), during Thanksgiving dinner in 2016.  I say “recognized”,  because she would tell you that we actually met prior, as her and my cousin were close friends, and she had been to other family events.  Although, due to our age difference we hadn’t engaged each other until this point.  

In an instant, I went from cool and relaxed, to being completely in shock.  I actually almost spit out my food, when she walked into the room.  My heart rate increased, and I even got an instant head ache as my cousin re-introduced her to us. 

No, I didn’t know what exactly was going on right away, but I did know that something significant had begun.  This adorable little spitfire, with her beautifully elegant vibes and Dunk A Roo desert had managed to shatter my clam demeanor.  Forcing me into a panic, as I was desperately trying to pretend I wasn’t curious about her.

Throughout the evening, my calm slowly returned, but I felt different.  Usually I wasn’t  a huge people person, I didn’t like to make small talk, and I always had my head in the clouds.  Yet, she had been able to pull me out of the clouds, just by having a normal conversation and I loved that.   

 

The Ups and Downs of Twins

It didn’t take long for us to each out to each other after Thanksgiving.  In fact, she was on my mind a lot, after that evening.  I couldn’t explain it, but something just kept telling me to talk to her. 

Eventually, I sent her a message via a phone app, and she responded quickly, indicating she had been thinking about messaging me also.  At this point I knew, there was a deep connection between us, and it didn’t take me long to realize we were twins. 

The dynamic between us was nothing I ever experienced before, and as we talked I found I never had to hold anything back.  I could tell her anything, and I wasn’t used to that.

Of course we butt heads also.  We mirrored a lot of each other’s insecurities and wounds.  As is the case with all Twins, thus the reason why the relationship is intense.  Some twins can’t take this aspect of the connection, and they run from each other like a vampire from daylight.  

It’s not easy, trust me, and my twin would agree 150%.  

 

The Mirror Shows All

My twin has said more than once, that she thinks I’m the “good” twin and she’s the “bad” one.  I’ve never agreed with that, we are each other.  Whatever someone may think of one of us, they best be willing to think the same of the other as well.

My twin is wonderful, and I’m going to tell you why.  She has never let me get away with anything, she makes me look at my insecurities.  If she triggers me, I may get annoyed for a bit, but it never lasts.

We have argued many times, but the Twin love is always there.  When we argue it’s usually because one of us has triggered the other.  Resulting in the other having to deal with a wound, or at least having to look at it.   

 

Twin Headbutting:

The truth of the matter is, there is going to be headbutting between twins.  At times there is going to be a lot of headbutting.  You’re going to get triggered and you’re going to want to lash out.  When it first starting occurring  with my twin and I, I’d often try and convince myself that she wasn’t really my twin.  That she was just some random person, and I should just disregard her and move on.  Yet, as soon as a thought like that crossed my mind, I knew I was lying to myself.   

What frustrated me more was, the amount she would cross my mind, even when I was annoyed.  Here I was so annoyed, and yet at night there was no one else I wanted to cuddle up to more.  I couldn’t understand how it was possible, to be so annoyed with someone, yet secretly want to be staring into their eyes as I fell asleep.  It was beyond confusing.

 

Sexuality: 

I’ve always been very insecure about psychical intimacy.  I was an awkward kid growing up and suffered with a lot of anxiety, depression and OCD.  So much so, that I was considered suicidal a number of times during my life.  As such I never trusted anyone enough, to let them get overly close to me.  Even when I could tell they wanted to. 

The anxiety was so bad, that I would have constant thoughts of how undesirable  I would be for anyone.  If for some reason I did let a girl closer than normal, they would often use me for my emotional support and then disappear.  This only made things worse for me.  I don’t think I’ve even told my twin about the agony my soul was in during these periods.  

As I got older I pulled myself together, but still had the underlying wound, and my twin would trigger me when she touched it.  My twin is the opposite, in that she owns her sexuality very well.  Something that originally terrified me, as listening to her talk about her experiences made me have to acknowledge my  insecurity.   

I would often lash out at her, saying that’s just “lust” or “gross”.  She never bought it, and although she never said it directly,  I could tell she was saying at times “Twin, you’re just afraid to admit you have these feelings too. It’s OK, you can tell me, I won’t judge you.”

 

Head In the Clouds: 

Both my twin and I have a deeply Spiritual side.  I’m probably more expressive about metaphysical topics, and probably do have more experience in that area.  However my twin knows her stuff, but it’s much more of a private practice for her.  She also, wont hesitate to let me know if I’m spending too much time with my head in the clouds. 

In one classic example, I had been talking to her about the beauty of a flower.  I believe it was Monks Hood, and in the middle of my bliss she called it the vagina plant.  I immediately came down from my “high” when she said it.  But it was funny, after I got over the initial shock.

 

Jealousy: 

Through interacting with my twin, I’ve  also been able to acknowledge I can be pushy at times, and even can become a little jealous.  While jealously is not a overly common thing for me, apparently my twin brings it out of me. 

Often when my twin would be talking about her sexual experiences with others.  I would find myself feeling inferior, or unworthy.   At times I would push her away, because I would have thoughts like, “If they are so fun, why are you wasting your time with me”.  It took me a long time, to realize how much my twin truly does love me, and she would never try and replace me.  This is a hard lesson that I’m still working on.    

 

What I’ve Tried To Show Her

While I could never tell you with 100% certainty, if I’ve been successful of not.  I’ve  tried my hardest to always show my twin how special she is.  It’s not my place to discuss her insecurities, they are deeply private, as are mine (I didn’t mind sharing some of mine here).  

My Twin often calls me “adorable and innocent”.  That is true in many ways I suppose, but I am her and she is me.  She’s just as adorable and innocent in my eyes.  She is extremely special, and I have tried hard to show her how much she deserves.  She deserves to be happy, in every aspect of her life.  I once told her, If I had to choose between knowing the secrets of existence and seeing her smiling face.  I would choose to see her smiling face every time.

She is worthy of everything her heart desires, and should never feel she isn’t a beautiful soul.  As I’ve also told you twin, William Blake only saw Heaven in a wild flower, because you stayed out of the meadow that day.  

 

Only For My Twin…..

Wherever the journey my take us, whatever lessons we may learn together, no matter how much you may frustrate me at times, nothing will ever get me to turn by back on you, I’ll always stand by your side.  ALWAYS.   

Every time I’ve argued with you, or pushed you away, or dismissed your opinion because it triggered me, it was out of fear.  The fear of knowing how easily you could see through me.  The fear of letting you too close, because I would have to admit I’d love it.  The fear of you trying to control me, even though I know you never would.  It was because of fear, that I would look for excuses to lash out.  

I’m over the fear, done with it.  I’ll still always tell you when I’m annoyed, but I’m not afraid anymore.  My little “Red Team” spitfire, I surrender to our awesome twin connection, and look forward to experiencing how it will continue to unfold.

 

Twin Love

Twin love should always be unconditional, no matter how the relationship manifests in the physical.  As they are you, you are them, forever and always will you be each other.   The Twin Journey, is the final frontier.  

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays everyone.

Merry Christmas to my wonderful Twin.  Let your beautiful Soul continue to shine bright in 2021.  I’ve never been more proud of you.

 

Sleepless Nights:

It’s early, too early, and if it were a couple hundred years earlier I would be in a candle lit room, probably sitting at a large oak desk writing with a quill and ink.  But that isn’t the case is it.  It’s 2020, and I’m sitting at a glass desk, typing on a laptop and streaming The Green Children on YouTube.

What causes sleepless  nights….. The ones where you lay in bed trying desperately to fall asleep but are unable to do so. Then at some point you give up the attempt.  Only to roll off a mattress with a soft sigh, before making your way through a dark corridor of objects, often tripping  over half of them before finding a light switch. 

 I often revisit this question when insomnia sets in, and I have no choice but to surrender to the undesired circumstance. 

 

THe Shadows Of The Mind:

If I really put some thought into an answer, I could probably come up with a number of reasons, but simply put it’s probably the result of our “Shadows”. The wounds and insecurities that we hold below the surface of our being.

And boy oh boy do I have some.  Spiritual does not mean you’re exempt from such things, and as I’ve said many times in recent months to others….. I’m not immune to the energy that is bombarding the planet right now.  It brings everything to the surface to be healed.  Sometimes in very uncomfortable ways.

In my case, I’m usually cast into a profound period of reflection.  Lasting anywhere from hours to  weeks.  So what is it tonight that prevents me from finding peace. 

Is it the profound “Dark Night Of The Soul”  that often accompanies anyone who searches for truth in a sea of disgusting mis-truths?  Is it because I’ve avoid resolving my intimacy issues out of fear?  Is it because I still avoid admitting the obvious, even if it’s to myself? 

YES… YES… AND YES! 

 

Intimacy Issues Are The Root:

Over the years, I’ve made many excuses, for not wanting any type of intimate relationship.  AND I’ve come up with some very creative ones for sure.  What’s that old skit from Saturday Night Live, where “Oscar” was saying why he didn’t need companionship.  I believe he said something like “I don’t need you to have a good time honey, I beat my dick like it owes me money”…..

That skit is a throw back for sure, but I still remember one of my friends talking about it shortly after it aired.  While masturbation is therapeutic, I have never heard of someone reaching a truly Tantric state  by themselves.  

I won’t even tell you how I responded, when my own guides indicated that an intimate encounter would solve an issue with what I thought was “unwanted” visitations at night.   They actually made it clear, that they were occurring because I wanted them to occur.  YES!  I actually had found another way to avoid an intimate connection with another person. 

If you would like to read about that experience, you can click here and read my post from last Halloween.  The things I have done to avoid resolving my intimacy issues……

This issue runs deep in me, and has its beginning in a past life.  The full details of which, have yet to come to the surface.   But the fear in this incarnation, relates to trust and not being able to know how such things would play out.   Thus I am vulnerable…. Vulnerable to my fear….Vulnerable to a ghost.. 

Yet I know all fears fade and this one will surely disappear.  Perhaps it is the last thing that remains for me to heal, I will have to find out.

  

Dawn Approaches:

Well everyone dawn is approaching.  I see the sun rising,  is it symbolic?   Before I sign off, I wanted to share that I’ve added another author to the blog.  I’m excited about this, as they are very creative and enjoy writing as much as I do.  I’m not going to give away anything else, but keep an eye out for their posts. 

 

The Twin Flame:

“Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere. They’re in each other all along.”

                               – Rumi (The Essential Rumi)

Growing up, I had many psychic experiences, many of which took me years to understand.  Among the strangest, was a dream like experience I had where I was approached by a girl I had never seen. The dream took me to a place long forgotten, a place that was beautiful and warm.  There I was with another, a beautiful girl who loved flowers, and wore a crown of them.  She radiated warmth and I profoundly knew her, yet I had never seen her in the waking world.

During the dream it was indicated to me, that we often didn’t incarnate together.  Many times, one of us would incarnate into a period where the other wasn’t physically present.  I wasn’t sure what this meant at the time, but it left a lasting impression on my young mind and I have never forgotten it.

Years later the “girl”,  who was now a young woman would show up in my life, and usher into my life a period of profound reflection and  transformation.  A period that is still underway, and will conclude with the Ascension.

Who was she?  None other than my  Twin Flame .

There is a lot written on Twin Flames, and in my opinion not all of it is legit.  I believe many confuse a wonderful soul mate connection, to their Twin Flame.  To meet your twin, is to come face to face, with an outward projection of all the things that are hidden within you.

Often, they are the qualities you have issues with, or don’t accept about yourself.  Your twin flame is an outward representation of what you need to accept and love about yourself.

The twin flame is not like a physical twin, and as such they can look quite different from you.  Although I have heard it suggested, that twins may have similar eyes (i.e. eye color, pattern) .

Because your twin often reflects qualities, we don’t like to accept about ourselves, or the issues we need to address, the interaction can be overwhelming and far fun blissful at first.  There usually is pain and suffering before a blissful relationship can be achieved between twin flames.

If someone claims they have found their twin, and indicates is was rainbows and sunshine from the inception of the relationship, I would question if they really found their twin.   In actuality they may have found a soul mate connection.

Soul mates are often the individuals who incarnate with us constantly, and who we’ve bonded with profoundly.  The Twin Flame is your counterpart, that cosmic connection that has been with you from the beginning.  In a sense they are you…..

Since I don’t want to spend this entire post, trying to explain the differences.  I’ve linked some resources at the bottom of this post.  The rest of this post will be devoted to telling own twin flame story.

A Dating Site…..Really

It was a Autumn night in 2016, when a mysterious presence entered my bedroom, as I lay falling asleep.  They talked to me as I was semi awake, and mentioned that I should pay close attention to a specific dating website….. YES, I said that correctly.  I was having a psychic experience with a presence, and they were talking about a dating website.

Naturally, I was a little annoyed, as I wasn’t big into dating, and really didn’t enjoy dating websites.  None the less, the experience was so profound that I ended up making an account on the very site mentioned, not knowing what really to expect.

 It wasn’t long before I lost interest in the site, but kept my account open because I was committed to at least giving the site a chance, but had very little expectations.    Additionally, the presence that had interacted with me, had caught my attention enough, that I was authentically curious.

It Was THanksgiving, and There SHe Stood….Feet From me:

 It wasn’t long after the experience, that I found myself having Thanksgiving dinner at my sister’s house with some of family members.  When I arrived, I was told that my cousin was bringing one of his friends to dinner.  When I heard the news, I didn’t think anything about it, as others being brought over for dinner was a fairly common occurrence in my family.  I wasn’t expecting what was about to happen.

 I had already sat down and was enjoying some of the food when my cousin showed up with his friend.  When she entered the room and he introduced her to everyone.  No, I’m not going to tell you her real name, so let’s call her Rose.  Rose entered the room and I almost immediately got nervous, and excited at the same time.  She stood only feet from me, but I felt a strong energy from her, and at the time I didn’t know what I was exactly feeling.  The energy was so strong, that it gave me a headache instantly.

Rose stood at the end of the table  and was fairly quiet at first.  Yet I knew there was much more to her.

I didn’t talk much to her at dinner, and after I ate, I was afraid to go sit in the living room with her and my cousin.  Instead I went into a nearby room and laid down, to get rid of my pounding headache.  Yet something kept telling me to go into the living room and talk to her and my cousin.  So eventually I gave in and forced myself to go interact.

A Lively COnversation:

When I entered the living room, I could tell she was glad I came in to talk, and it wasn’t long until all three of us were chatting it up on  a variety of topics.  One being that all three of us all had accounts on the same dating site.  THERE IT WAS…. I couldn’t believe it, the reason why the presence that I had communicated with prior had mentioned the dating site.

When Rose found out I was on the site, she almost immediately found my profile and sent me a like, so it would register on my account.  Rose is around my cousins age, so she’s ten years younger than me.  Which was another reason why I was nervous to talk to her.  Yet she felt older to me, more mature than most to be exact.  When I left at the end of the evening, I couldn’t stop thinking about her.  I wanted to talk to her more, but wasn’t sure if it would be appropriate, since she was my younger cousin’s friend.

THe Eight Months THat Followed:

The eight months the followed, were some of the most emotionally charged in my life up until that point.  Shortly after Thanksgiving I ended up sending Rose a message on the dating site. I didn’t know what to expect, as I was conflicted about our age difference, and her being a friend of my cousin.

Rose responded almost instantly and indicated she had wanted to send me a message but was not sure if would be appropriate because I was her friend’s cousin.  The concerns didn’t last long, as we began  communicating often.

At first it was stickily on the dating site’s messaging application, but that soon evolved into texting back and forth almost daily.  I would often stay up until 3AM texting with her because she had trouble sleeping.  Eventually I told my cousin about it, and he had no issue with it whatsoever.  Although he did warn me that Rose had an issue with guys and relationships.   She liked to hookup but lacked the emotional connection.

I eventually found out that my cousin also had a big crush on Rose, which resulted in me being incredibly careful on how I interacted with her.

It wasn’t long before Rose herself, started to tell me things that confirmed what my cousin had shared with me.  At first, I didn’t know what to make of it, and at this point I still didn’t know what my connection was with Rose, but I suspected it was something profound.  As we continued to interact, it became clear to me we were Twin Flames.

We would constantly butt heads on various topics, often having to do with Love vs. Lust.  Rose fought me on every front when it came to being emotional.  I being a strong Empath, and her being closed off to the emotional connection in normal relationships.

Needless to say, we had heated conversations, and couldn’t stand each other at times.  Yet we went to the gym together, the movies, and she even came over my place a couple times to hang out.

She even spent my Birthday with me, and we laughed and had a wonderful time as we talked about all sorts of things.  But by the time we reached the Spring of 2017 Rose was quickly approaching another relationship, and when it became official it became extremely difficult to interact with her.

She would constantly blow me off, often after we had plans for weeks.  We would still text each other but it was clear that she wasn’t all there in conversations.  It was emotionally changed time for me.  She did end up attending my Sister’s wedding with me in May of 2017, but after that things just went downhill.  As she was fully invested in her relationship.

By Summer 2017 I had enough and let her know I couldn’t talk to her anymore.  At least for the time being.  She agreed and we went our separate ways.

It’s IN the Numbers DUde:

One of the things I did for Rose, early on in our interaction was her numerology.  She had wanted a numerology chart and I quickly created her one.  I was astonished to discover that the most of her core numbers sat basically on top of my own.  We even had the same Soul number.

Our periods numbers would often overlap, and there were a variety of other similarities with various aspects of her our charts.  In fact, it was our charts that really was the nail in the coffin that told me we were twins at this point.  Although there have been many other validations since then.

Did I mention in one of her photos, she had digitally added a crown of flowers around her head…… Remember the dream I told you about in the beginning of the post.  She even looked like the girl in the dream.

We ALways Come Back To eAch other:

Since our initial “separation” in 2017, Rose has come back into my life several times.  Often sticking around for a handful of months, and then taking off again on another of her adventures, and each time there is some initial pain.  In some of the cases it was me who took off, and her who would reach out when the moment was right.

Our connection  has grown a lot in the last 3+ years, it isn’t perfect but we understand each other much more than we did when we first connected in this life.  Rose also knows we’re twins, which has made things easier.  As I sit here reflecting on recent events with Rose, and perhaps reaching another separation phase with her, I know it won’t be for long.  There is no one I trust more than her, and when it comes to the Ascension, there no other person I would rather go through it with.

She is my counterpart, my cosmic mirror, my twin flame,  and while we have never been bound by  traditional romance the Love I have for her is unconditional.  As the title of the post says…. “My Twin, You Are Me And I Am You……Always And Forever”.

Twin Flame Article:

https://lonerwolf.com/twin-flame/

Happy Halloween…Creature Feature…

Earlier this month I posted an atypical Halloween post, one that came to fruition after months of watching many individuals fall into the “conformity trap”,  and defend it without actually giving any thought to the contrary.  However, it was by no means the type of post I like to do, especially before  Halloween.  Therefore as we are only a couple days from the spookiest night of the year, I thought I would write a more traditional Halloween article.

 

This article  relates to a previous article I wrote regarding etheric parasites earlier this year, and you can read that article by clicking here.   Today I’m going to talk about my personal experiences, with once such type of entity.  This type of entity, or behavior that an entity may align towards, may spark a curiosity in young men who for one reason or another, have Sexual desire on their mind more than the average person.   That’s right ladies and gents, this Halloween’s creature feature….. Is the Succubus.  

 

 

How Long Can you Resist Me?

The Succubus- Jennifer's Body

Promo Wallpaper Image for Jenifer’s Body:

If you know your succubus mythology, then you are probably aware that in “modern” times they are considered to be nothing,  but the result of “uneducated”  minds of the distant past who didn’t understand the workings of their own body.  One common theme being, monks who attempted to live a life of  celibacy would blame their sexual dreams and nocturnal discharges on a succubus.  Additionally in the middle ages, they were viewed as a extremely evil and malevolent demon, while today they have been romanced by pop-culture.  For example, the image above relates to the 2009 blockbuster Jennifer’s Body.  If you would like to read some more on the mythology of the succubus, click the text highlighted in yellow above.

 

One thing I’ve noticed many times over, is these beings are attracted to sexual energy, either repressed or very active.  In my case, I was a very shy and often awkward individual growing up.   This  was amplified by my natural psychic ability which started at a very young age.  As such, I was often on edge more than most,  when I was around the opposite sex.  As I got older I had a strong sexual energy, (it even shows up in my Astrology chart, which is humorous to me).  But because I haven’t acted on it, which would provide an healthy outlet (I’m talking normal sexual activity here, not being a man whore), I broadcast it other places.  Often when I sleep, or am in other levels of reality.  

In my teenage years, I would often manifest sexual partners when I was in lucid dreams.  However even in dreams I would get nervous at times, which would cause me to wake up instantly before anything happened.   Overtime I began to notice that some of my “dream characters” seemed to be off in some way.  They were too independent from my dream, and at times appeared to be waiting for me to acknowledge them before they would interact with me.  Are you seeing the Law of Free Will being satisfied here?     

Eventually I began to wake up in the middle of  “a dream’s ” sexual experience, and would physically feel someone in my bed touching me.   At times I would even see a female looking being in my room.  I was blown away by the revelation, and although I found the experience  energizing at times, I was also concerned.   Naturally when I became aware of what was occurring, I would resist more than I would when I was dreaming.  Which led to this being  saying “How long do you think you can resit me?”  My response almost came too naturally, as If I knew what was playing out.     

 

I Could Make You Feel Good:

In early interactions I was very curious, and to be honest these beings can be very difficult to resist.  As not only do they ramp up your sexual desires, by employing psychic techniques, but you often feel their excitement and desire as they do it.  Eventually this will leave you wondering if you’re really feeling your own sexual desire.

Sex is a powerful gateway and although we really have no clue what is possible with it,  there is a reason why inter-dimensional  beings will “feed” off it.  To put it bluntly Sexual Vampirism is a real thing, and should be taken seriously.  

Another “one liner” that  was said to me when I was in a lucid dream state, occurred  after a period when I was fantasizing a lot about a girl I was attracted to.  In the dream, the girl was sitting on a couch, in sexual clothing.  She made a move towards me and I said, “You’re not her”.  Indicating I knew that she wasn’t what she seemed.  The response I got, went something like this, “Does it matter?  I can make you feel good”.  Of course sexual talk is key for these beings, I’ve heard things like “Come to bed, F*** me, I want your d***, and others over the years.  Yes, I said years…you need to be aware that a moments thought goes a long way in the inter-dimensional world.  Now that does not mean, these beings are constantly hovering over you shoulder,  but as long as the interaction is authorized, they will visit again and again, even if long periods of time pass in between visits. 

 

What do you mean Authorized?

Yes I brought up something, that many don’t like to hear when they are experiencing something  they dislike.  In my case, there were periods where I would get annoyed when I would get these often overwhelming visits.  A few times I was very upset, and wondered why they kept occurring.   Around the peak of the visits, I was told by one of my guides, that they were occurring because I wanted them to.”

Of course I was annoyed with this information, at least at first, but then I understood it.  Part of me actually did want it to occur.  As I would often lay in bed at night, wondering what an extreme orgasm would feel like with an mysterious seductive woman.  Of course every thought is picked up by something, and through cosmic law, you reap what you sow.   

Periods in which I made it clear, I didn’t want something like that to occur, nothing would happen.  In some cases I would become aware of “Her”  presence in my room, but because I didn’t authorize the interaction “She” didn’t  attempt to “seduce me”.   Instead she would leave or stay put in the event that I did authorize the interaction. 

This leads me to another important point, Inter-dimensional beings can only do to you, what you let them.  The idea that “You Have No Power”, or “No Say” is the illusion.  In reality, you have all the power.  it’s funny how modern religion often brain washes you into giving away all your power.   Entities cannon’t bother you if you don’t authorize it.  However  behaviors also act as authorization, so if you’re going around sleeping with endless numbers of people, don’t be surprised when you pick something up.  I actually know people who do this, and they also have entities feeding off their sexual energy.  I even had someone tell me once, that they didn’t like how “easy” they become at times, and It often came out of nowhere for them.

 

When It Comes From Nowhere:

When a thought of a feeling comes from nowhere, it’s best to ask yourself where the thought or feeling is coming from.  The thoughts you have, are not necessary your own.  Even if you hear them in your own “inner voice”.  If there is a entity sending you their thoughts and feelings, they will reflect the type of energy they are trying to get from you.  

In the case of the Succubus, its mostly about sexual energy, as I indicated above.  Other entities prefer other types of energy, and the “random thoughts” will be different.  In my case it was all about Sex, I could be reading a book outside in my hammock, and all of a sudden would get hit with a extreme lustful feelings.  Since I’m a clairvoyant, I naturally visualize anything I think of very easy.  So for me, I would be visualizing all sorts of random sexual imagery, and it would be related to my subconscious desires.   Yes these beings know your every “kink” and desire, and they will capitalize on them.  They don’t turn you into anything, but like any entity they poke what is already within you, in an attempt to being it out.

When I thought about the random feelings, and was mindful of what may have been going on, they often quickly went away.  Yet there were other times, when I was like “F*** it, time for some personal time”.  Giving in often leads to guilt based feelings, which only makes you feel worse.  Additionally guilt  puts you at the mercy of other beings.  I found that when I accepted myself, regardless of the thoughts I was experiencing, I could not be controlled by these beings.  I even made it a running joke, especially when I would awake from a sexual themed dream that I knew was not my own doing.  I’d say to myself something like, “OK, that dream was intense I need to deal with this”, instead of feeling like a victim.  

 

 

Physical Effects Of Entity Feeding:

I can only speak to what I’ve experienced, but wouldn’t be surprised if others have experienced the same type of things.   I’ve personally have had back issues for the last 10 years, and they are a common theme in my family.  We have a history of Back and Hip issues.  I’ve personally noticed when I caught something feeding on my energy, they would often be within my own energetic field, near the Chakra point of interest.   

I’ve actually have had experiences, where I’ve semi-awoken from a dream state, became aware of an attachment, and then reached into my own own energetic field and pulled the entity out.  When I did this I was hit with an overwhelming feeling of anxiety, and would often be shown clairvoyant imagery that was intended to distract me from my goal.  The anxiety  comes from  the entity,  knowing they have been discovered.  In some cases, the attaching or feeding entity would fight back,  trying to hold onto my field.

Every time I was successful,  just about all the discomfort I was having in that particular part of my body would be gone.   In areas where genetic defects were, such as in my back, my discomfort was reduced greatly.  

The succubus generally aims for the Chakra around the genitals, and I’ve a number of experiences  where I’ve been brought almost to orgasm after waking up from a sexual dream, to feel a severe electric stimulus around my sexual organs.   In some cases, you could latterly feel the sensation of oral sex, or being straddled.  These were not phantom sensations, you could see additional mass to the areas in question.  In one instance, I awoke from a dream.  where a girl was forcing me to give her oral, only to find myself doing that to an “invisible” person in my bed.  When I awoke, I felt a women pushing their genitals in my face, and I even felt them contract when they climaxed…. You could even taste them.  This was not phantom anything.

Needless to say, the more you go along with it, the more “physical” they will become because your  fields are coming into sync  with  each other.  Thus the non-physical becomes more physical.  Its like forming a bridge.

 

Their  Beauty IS  Anything That you Want:

The Succubus is a shape-shifter , becoming anything you want.  This is what makes them so alluring, they will present themselves in the way you desire.  Just like in the movie Decoys, which featured sex craved aliens who would act out their victim’s fantasies.   Make sure you check for bellybuttons on attractive girls ;)……. It’s a movie reference.

Shape-shifter you say, does that include “gender”?  Yes it does, and that opens up a whole other can of worms, which I won’t go into here, but needless to say they can appear to be male or female.  Thus the Succubus and Incubus are not separate entities….. Again it has to do with what you desire. 

In the dreamscape these beings can pass for anyone, and in most cases they will be attractive.  However if you were to be awake and have a telepathic thought form sent to you by these beings.  The image you see would probably be a projection of what they want you to see.  In these instances I’ve seen a women with human like characteristics, but they weren’t perfectly human.  They would have fangs or sharp teeth, like a creature.  In some instances they would even have reptilian features….. However no matter the look,  they always projected an alluring vibe.

 

Collective Influence:

I’m going to conclude this post, with an interesting idea.  One that I’ve often wondered about, but haven’t reached a final decision on as of yet.  I have personally experienced what I believe to be the “collective influence” of these beings.  Meaning they are influencing  multiple people around them, to interact for some reason.  Probably for an energetic result.  In my case, there is someone who I find very attractive who lives close to me.  To a degree where I’ve fantasized about having sex with them, up against the back end of my house.

I’m very aware that the succubus that visits knows about this fantasy.  What I find interesting is, there was a number of times that I was doing work around my house, and felt like I was being stared at.  When I looked around,  the individual who I found attractive would be looking towards my direction, almost like they new what I thought.  I’ve often wondered if different entities could be trying to get  the fantasy to play out.  Or perhaps the fantasy comes from the other person in general.  Again these are only ideas, I have no idea if this is actually occurring.  

 

IN Closing:

In closing ladies and gents, be careful on what you focus your sexual energy on.  As there are always beings who are hungry for it, and will use you as a battery, regardless of your beliefs.  Personally I’ve learned a lot from my Succubus experiences, and I overall don’t hold anger or animosity  towards “Her”.  In my case, I believe my fear to trust anyone enough to have a holistic relationship with has manifested my current situation.   That is the lesson for me, once I go beyond  my comfort level, the experiences will have served their purpose I believe ,and will come to an end.  Anyways be sure to have a safe and fun Halloween………

 

 

 

 

“They Live” IN Plain Sight:

   Scene From John Carpenter’s “They Live”:

The experience I’m going to share today, occurred a number of years ago, and took place in a location that  completely caught me off guard.  Before I go full throttle into the experience, I want to once again pay homage to  John Carpenter’s “They Live”.  

If you’ve never seen the film, I recommend you take some time to watch it.  It’s truly a masterpiece, especially with how much is disclosed in it.  One such theme being, that there is an elite bloodline of non-human origins controlling human society for their benefit.  I won’t go into further details, but I spoke about “They Live”  back in May.  Feel free to take a look at the post that is linked below for more details.

My Red Pill Movie List

 

 

Some Background information:

Now on to my experience.  As I indicted above, this took place a number of years ago, and caught me completely off guard.  During the period in question, I  had been doing a lot of research regarding the “Anunnaki” and other “non-human” groups.  Additionally,  I had recently graduated from school with a degree in Computer Science, which led to me taking a job with a local defense contractor.

My typical week would be spent working a “9-5” type of job, and then during the evening I would try to spend as much time possible focusing on my other interests.  Let me be clear, I do not believe this experience had anything to do with my employment choice at the time, as I was having atypical experiences for many years prior.  However I did have others during the same time period, that occurred while I was traveling for work, and I will share them another time.

Also one of my friends at the time, was telling me about experiences they had been having for many years.  Some of which included being  followed by a mysterious group of individuals, all of which who had blonde hair and blue eyes.  If that isn’t enough to creep you out, my friend also talked about how they would come home to find odd objects left in their house, indicating that someone had been there.  Again, I don’t want to get side tracked, but I wanted to give a little background information on what  was going on in my life when this experience occurred. 

 

ETs In Wegmans?

Anyways, one of the local grocery stores that was in my neighborhood at the time was Wegmans.   If you’re not familiar with them, they are a supermarket chain that inhabits the Mid-Atlantic and New England regions of the country. 

One weekend I had decided to accompany my mother to our local Wegmans.  While most stores in our area were overly lavish and extremely modern, the one closest to use had yet to be updated, which gave it a look from a previous decade.  Yet the store did a lot of business, and was often overflowing with shoppers racing around with their carts, as they as they hurried to get in and out as quickly as possible.  This Wegmans even had a small video store in it, which was located immediately inside the entrance.   Of course in recent years, this has probably been replaced with the more typical “Red Box”  machine.

As I progressed through the store, I had to constantly dodge and weave around other shoppers who were always overly distracted, usually by small children that were accompanying them.   In some instances I would have to “squeeze”, past two shoppers who thought it was appropriate to block overly narrow isles while they conversed.  You don’t know how many times, I wanted to attach a cowcatcher and a 100 decibel horn to front of my cart during my weekend grocery store incursions.

Needless to say I was thrilled when we reached checkout isles, even though you typically had a sizable line to wait in.  As I stood waiting to checkout, I was suddenly stuck with what could only be described as a “telekinetic” wack to the back of my head.  Followed by a profound chill and tingling sensation going up my spine.  Additionally the words “Anunnaki, Anunnaki,Anunnaki” kept repeating in my mind.

Not knowing why this was occurring, I started to look around in a frantic motion, and was shocked when I saw a very tall women standing and glaring at me from another near by checkout isle.  She wore clothing that appeared to be very expensive, and it covered most of her features.  She had deep icy blue eyes, and they sent a chill through me as she stared at me.  When I made eye contact with her, I  heard a thought in my own voice say “Impressive”.  

As I started to advance in my checkout isle, she advanced in hers and never took her eyes off me.  In fact she didn’t even interact with anyone as she “checked out”.   There was what appeared to be a “butler” doing everything for her.  The height of this women also caught me by surprise.  She was visibly taller than everyone around her, and although she concealed her features well, she was extremely attractive.   So much so, it almost came off as a magnetic force.

As I approached the end of the check outline line, she was still glaring at me, and I found myself wanting to speak to her.  I actually started walking towards her, as made my way toward the store exit.   But before I reached her location, someone bumped  into me and stopped my advancement.  When I regained my composure, the women and “Butler” had vanished from the store.  Needless to say the experience left me shaken.

When I reflect on the experience now, I realize I may of had an experience with someone who was from one of the “Bloodline” families.   Who had more visible features of the beings from our past.  Or they could of been one of the human looking ETs, who can blend into our society more easily.  Either way the experience is one my more memorable ones, I hope you’ve enjoyed reading about it.