Karmic Relationship Recap……. The Sociopath

This past December, I wrote an article related to my experiences with karmic relationships.  Or as I’ve decided to call them, “The relationships that force inner work to be done”.  The article was by no means easy for me to write, and I was only able to laugh because of how much “suffering” occurred previously.   If you haven’t read the article, you can do so by clicking here

If you did read my December article, then you probably would of expected  me to lean my lesson, and stop interacting with such people.  Well what can I say, I can be awfully stubborn at times.  Today I’m going to share, the most recent interaction I had with one of the individuals I spoke about in my December article.  I will also share what occurred, to finally get me to see the “hard truth”.   As I stated prior, I will not use real names in these posts.



                                        Photo by Artem Labunsky on Unsplash


I’m not going to spend a lot of time (if any), repeating information from my December article.  As such, If you want to know more about my previous interaction with Issie, I recommend you read my article .  Needless to say, there is a reason why I call her “Issie The Dominate”.   It’s important to mention again, that I never was in an intimate relationship with her, and thank God I wasn’t.   We were simply “friends” or “semi-friends”, but even that led to “charged” situations. 

Anyways in my previous article I indicated, that I told her I wouldn’t be continuing my interaction with her (for a number of reasons).  However,  like I typically did with her, I backed down, and continued  to communicate with her  after the New Year. 

Boy oh Boy!!!! Did I get bit in the ass for it too.  Issie has a way of getting in your head, and making it seem like she truly is your friend, but you’re more of a fad to her.  As she once told me, she made a guy cry during sex, and  described his tears as “big ole alligator tears”.  Or something along those lines.  She then told me how she basically left him like that.  When I asked what she did, she insisted she did nothing, and he had “fallen” for her.  Issie doesn’t do love,  she does lust, so if you make the mistake of showing her any emotion she will become distant.

Anyways, we continued to communicate into January, and our conversations ranged from dreams and metaphysics, to being a little flirty at times.   In one conversion, she told me she was upset she wasn’t married yet, and felt alone.  Less than a week later, she told me she wasn’t the marrying type, and that she wanted to be the girl men thought of when they were in a boring marriage years later.

She would continually want me to answer her questions, but would never answer anything I asked her of consequence.  If I mentioned something she didn’t approve of, I wouldn’t hear from her for a period of time.  She treated me pretty much like one of her submissive minions, and it generally annoyed me.   Eventually she would reach out to me, and say something sweet to me, or give me a complement.  But then the same behaviors would just repeat over and over.   

By the end of the month, I finally had enough and ended the friendship.  It wasn’t easy to do, and for awhile before hand, I seriously thought the issue was me.  I actually though It was my fault for being a nice person.   So when she disregarded me, I literally thought I was a bad person for having an emotional side.  I enjoy authentic conversation, which involves showing some emotion and asking genuine questions.   She always seemed to try and punish me for that.  

Which included disregarding how I felt, when she treated me like shit.  Anyways towards the end of the month, I was even having dreams, which where telling me I needed to separate from her.

Synchronicity began playing more of a role, and even when I pulled Rune stones there would be messages indicating it was time to separate.  On January 31,  I actually had a dream where she started blatantly treating me horrible, and when I awoke I found that “something” had turned the heat off in my house.  The switch on the thermostat had actually been moved to the “Off Position”.  This really got my attention, as it was freezing in my place.  The temperature had dropped to around 54 degrees in the house overnight.

This was the final “weird” synchronicity that caused me to say enough was enough.  I contacted her via her preferred method, and left her a message indicating that I was done.  I didn’t expect a response, because that would be to personal for her, and I didn’t get one.  But I knew she was well aware of my decision.


Maxim’s article on Sociopaths:

Roughly a week later, I was browsing the internet and came across a Maxim article written in 2014.  The article was entitled “10 Signs You’re Dating a Sociopath”.  To make things even better, the subtitle was “And the author should know – she is one”.   I read the entire article, and couldn’t believe how much it described Issie to a tee.  For every bullet point mentioned in the article, I could think of more than one occasion where Issie said or did something to earn her a tick on the Sociopath check list.  I’ll link the full article at the bottom of the post, but I’ll also provide brief examples of each bullet point made in the article.  This article specifically focuses on the female sociopath, thus why all the bullet points start with “She”. 



Sociopath Bullet Points:


1. She Will Be Eager to Data Mine You – Issie did this constantly, She  would always want you to talk about yourself, and would very rarely ever provide any information about herself.  If I asked anything that would shine light onto her personality specifically, she would not respond to me.  Often waiting a few days before responding by altering the topic we had been talking about.    Or by redirecting the conversation so she would be asking the questions again.  In one case she indicated, that she would rather I talk about myself instead of her talking.


2. She Will Be Everything You Want Her To Be –  Ding Ding Ding!!!! Issie would do her best to match your interests.  If you liked talking about Metaphysical topics (As it was the case for me), she presented herself as someone who loved the topics just as much as you.  I watched her change her personality as she interacted with other guys, and she always did it masterfully.  She was often curious about your most inner desires also, indicating that she would let guys “be themselves” with her, and that was what drove them to her.


3. She Will Be Charming Until She Isn’t – Ding!  She was always charming, until she either got bored of you, or you annoyed her.  She would later come back, to see if you would still talk to her, regardless of what had occurred with you and her.  She would even be so charming, that if she were to go out, multiple guys would show an interest in her, and she would eat it all up.  The next morning would be a different story however.  I witnessed her get a high from not responding to messages, and watching men squirm as they desperately tried to get her attention again.


4. She Will Always Want Something – With Issie it was mostly attention or Sex.  But what is Sex, but the ultimate form of attention.  She had no trouble getting what she wanted, and she was very good getting things indirectly.  Often thinking multiple steps in advance.  


5. She Will Remain Calm – She was almost always calm, even when she was annoyed or upset.  In fact I don’t recall anytime where she actually showed any true anger, she typically would rather disregard you if she was upset.  Never giving you a chance to communicate any frustration with her, and if you did you’d get the silent treatment until she wanted to talk again.


6. She Will Give Zero Shits – DING!  she even indicated this to me a number of times.  Often saying something along the lines of  “If someone doesn’t want to interact with me because of blah… That’s their issue”.  Keep in mind the issue may be she directly did something hurtful to them.  Giving zero shits is putting it mildly. 


7. She Will Be Great in Bed – Issie indicated this to me, so many times I have lost tract.  Often telling me how she loved controlling the male orgasm, verbalizing how wonderful her pu*** was.  Or telling me about how she liked it in bed.  I actually pissed her off once, by saying Love and Lust were not synonymous.  I thought her eyes were going to bust into fireballs, and she was going to  Hadouken me into oblivion.


8.  She Will Be Emotionally Unavailable – She was never emotionally available, not even in conversation.  One particular time really stands out to me.  She was supposed to be home watching and caring for her family’s elderly dog.  But because she wanted to go out with her boyfriend at the time, she ended up packing the dog into the car and making it go out with her.  Sweet isn’t she?  I heard about this from one of my friends, as she had the dog with her when she visited him.


9. She Will Be Hard to Describe – Everything about Issie is hard to describe.  From look, to personality, and if you try and analyze her you’ll be in for a task.


10. She Will Be Unclear About Her Past – Again she doesn’t like talking about herself.  In fact she as I indicated above she will avoid it.  As for her past, she only will share parts that entrance you, or if they are relevant  to her goals.  Whatever they may be.



Needless to say, when I read Maxim’s article it hit me like a ton of bricks.  Issie was a Sociopath, and everything she did made sense to me now.  I have to admit, I was taken back.  I wasn’t expecting it to be true, mainly because of how much of a soft spot I had for her.  AND despite everything, I still wanted her to have a happy fulfilling life.  Yet I knew that I would never be able to interact with her again, as long as she behaved in such a manor. 

And that ladies and gents, is how it ended.  









The Great Impeachment Fail Updated:

Well ladies, gents, and other personal pronouns.   We have finally reached the end, of the latest outbreak of Trump Impeachment Syndrome, and the outcome was no surprise, to me anyway.  I’ve written a couple of different posts regrading what we may see occur, in regards to Trump and the 2020 election.  If you haven’t read them, you can do so by clicking here and here.   

I had to chuckle this morning, because as I browsed YouTube there were already uploads with snarky titles, complaining about the impeachment vote.  “The Late Night Snow with Stephen Colbert”, was actually the first that caught my eye.  It stated, “GOP-Controlled Senate Find Trump Not Guilty, But Mitt Romney Honors His Oath And Votes To Convict”.   I have to admit, I don’t watch Stephen Colbert, nor would I ever choose too.  Yet the title of this video, hit me as someone saying the following.  “Because the Senate didn’t vote the way I wanted, it didn’t honor it’s oath”.  If we ever reached a full Orwellian state, I wouldn’t be surprised if Colbert was propped up  as one nation’s entertainment mouth pieces, Similar to Dietrich in ” V for Vendetta”.  

Alas I’m sure he won’t be the last person, to make sarcastic comments about the Senate vote, in fact I’m still waiting to see that tidal wave crest.  However, if you really thought Trump was going to be convicted, then I don’t know what to tell you.  Perhaps you should take a look at the history of impeachment.

I bet I know one person, who won’t wast any time trying to spin the vote, into a tail of pure propaganda……  I’m sure some us remember the below after the Mueller investigation.



Trump Derangement Syndrome (or in this case Trump Impeachment Syndrome) is toxic, and as we’ve seen it hasn’t resulted in “the infected” getting what they want.  Could it possibly  be because, it’s a agenda designed to keep people divided, or distract from other things going on all around us….. I believe that is the case.  They also haven’t gotten what they wanted, because they are suffering from  cognitive dissonance.  You can’t realistically hold one group of people to a different standard than another, when both groups are guilty of the same thing.  For example you can’t  cry “corruption” on a Republican based on subjective testimony, but ignore objective evidence of  Democratic  corruption.   If you do, chances are the outcome you want won’t occur, as truth is not subjective.

I don’t recall Maddow crying, when Clinton’s team destroyed  their electronic devices, after they were supposed to hand them over to congress for investigatory  purposes.  What’s that called…… Obstruction.  But don’t bring things like this up to TDS suffers, it will only anger them as they try to make an excuse as to why “It’s not the same”.


Iowa caucus shenanigans :


This leads me to another point regarding Trump Impeachment Syndrome (TIS for short).  One of the big arguments for his removal, is related to election meddling attempts in the 2020 election.  More specifically to prevent him from “cheating” this November.

Of course many people will always project what they are doing onto others, especially if it’s nefarious.  Thus why individuals who cheat, often accuse their partners of being the cheaters.  In this case, after hearing for over three years  about the ongoing narrative of Russian election meddling, and the need to secure our elections.  The DNC creates an application to process votes during the Iowa Caucus.  They then turn down Homeland Security’s offer to have the application scanned for security vulnerabilities.  The result of which, is the application fails to report results, leading to chaos for the Democratic party.  The official cause of the problem, is “A Coding Error”.  Gee inspector, could that have been caught if the application was vetted? 

Personally, it sounds to me as if the DNC is trying to screw Bernie yet again.  Throw into the mix, that apparently  ex Clinton staffers played a part in creating the application, and some eye brows should be raised.  Thankfully, at the time of this post, it appears Bernie still came out on top, or very close to it.  In contrast, Biden is currently being listed in 4th place, resulting in 0 delegates.  It will be interesting to see how the trend progresses, but personally Biden’s numerology indicates the longer he campaigns the harder it will get for him.  Once the Democrat  nominee is determined I will post on their numerology, for further insight. 

What amazes me the most here, is the DNC not allowing their application to be checked for security vulnerabilities.  I find myself wondering, why would that be the case?  Especially after the Democrats have spent so much time touting election security, and expressing the idea of  “If Trump wins 2020, he cheated”.  Of course I’m paraphrasing a little here, but if you watched the Senate trial there were some moments that suggested as much.

The Democrats also want to nationalize the election process, but in my opinion a group that can’t even get a application right for a single primary event, shouldn’t be raising the bar just yet.  A centralized system would also make it easier to steal an election.  Instead of having to compromise many independent systems, you would only need to compromise one.    


SO what’s Next?


That is the question isn’t it.  Personally I would love to see the Democrats cut the crap, and focus on genuine campaigning.  If they want to win, they have a lot of work to do.  They clearly are not as confident as they say. Especially since they spent the last three years, trying to find a way where they wouldn’t have to run against Trump in 2020. 

Two of their candidates are way too extreme to win a general election (Sanders and Warren), and Biden is just creepy.  So where does that leave them?  Buttigieg?  They seem to have forgotten, they still live in a center-right country, and no amount of complaining is going to change that.  Nor is trying to alter laws to bring about the grand Socialist Dystopia some seem to want.  Balance should be what aim for, not bat shit extreme.  Hopefully they will cure themselves of Trump Impeachment Syndrome.  Otherwise it will continue to hurt their standing with voters outside of their base, and a victory this November without these voters is not likely.  

I’m going to end, with what I said when I posted my  Trump Vs The Deep State article, and we can see if anything was correct. 



What I’m expecting (Updates In Red) :

I believe the house will vote articles of impeachment, and the majority of the media will do their best to use it to overshadow truly important investigations, such as the IG report.   

UPDATE: This did happen, both were reported around the same time, and most media outlets avoided talking about the IG report.  At least I didn’t see much reporting outside of Fox.


I’m expecting the Senate to be in an uproar in January, as it progresses through a trial.   I also expect there will be some surprises, such as at least a couple Republican senators voting to remove Trump. 

UPDATE: The senate was in an uproar, especially with the house holding the impeachment articles,  but only one republican senator voted to remove Trump.


Overall there will not be enough votes to remove Trump from office, and by mid February at the latest impeachment will be dead. 

UPDATE: We will be going into the second week of February, and as it stands impeachment is dead.


I expect the Democrats will still do their best to smear Trump, and blame a corrupt system for not “holding him accountable”,

UPDATE:  They are still doing their best to smear Trump, and amazingly they even suggested the Senate would be part of a cover up if they didn’t vote to convict Trump… This occurred in the opening days of the Senate trial.  The idea of “Vote how we want, or you’re in on a cover up” is such an Orwellian mindset  isn’t it?   


I do think Elizabeth Warren will take the Democratic nomination, but we will have to see on that one.

UPDATE:   Will have to wait and see how the primary season plays out.


I’m expecting the general election debates to be legendary, and should be watched with a big bowl of pop corn.

UPDATE:  We will have to wait and see on this.


I’m expecting Trump to be re-elected, and the MSM to have another mental breakdown.  As well as riots to break out in large progressive cities such as LA and NY.  Watch for ANTIFA……..

UPDATE:  We will have to wait until after Election results are presented on this one.


I’m expecting the MSM to take a major hit, this will occur as more secretes are brought to the surface for the pubic to see. I believe we will see amazing things in the not too distant future, and what is occurring now is the old guard trying everything they can to keep power.     

UPDATE:  This is already staring to happen.  News outlets such as CNN & MSNBC are already taking major hits in viewership.  Not to mention alternative media appears to be on the rise.










THe Crystal Cave:

She sat silent at the head of a crystalline pool, eyes closed, and with one arm resting effortlessly by her side.   The other struggling to stay slightly elevated, while her fingertips caressed her neck.  Colorful orbs danced around her body, time itself began to slow, and the crystal cave itself acknowledged her.   

The sounds of the rushing ocean outside the cave, and the immense light radiating from the nearby crystals no longer concerned her.  She had been training for years, to reach such a state of bliss, and it was in the scared cave of her people that she finally accomplished this pivotal goal.

Her mind now in sync with the cosmic web, a truth that didn’t enter the consciousness of her people until after the Great Awakening, allowed her to transverse space and time without taking one step.

However while she was able to make the initial connection, she had never gotten much further.  What she did get, was what she called “random images” of places and people that confused her.  

Yet, she had been told by her city elder that all would make sense soon enough.  Yet Aurora was never one to wait and it was because of this, that she now sat in her favorite place, contemplating the nature of the web.

The only thing she truly knew, was this was only the beginning of her journey.  How symbolic it was, that it would begin in the Crystal Cave of what was now called Terra.




Dream Journal 03-2020:

The “Lady In Red” makes an appearance in this dream.  As she has done in others over the years, and every time she does odd things occur.  I cannot help to be drawn to her, this woman, she knows me and I her.  Yet the mischievous nature she comes with, can bend even the most strong willed at times.

In one instance I jumped out of my bed from a sound sleep, and actually saw her standing in my bedroom.  In some dreams, she is in red and I’m in blue, indicating a profound connection.  This is a short dream, but I thought I’d share it nonetheless.


The Lady In Red and The Library Project:



In this dream I was in an advanced city, everything looked sleek and clean.  A connected metropolis that fades from memory, even as I write this down at this very moment.  It was here that I found myself in a classroom, taking a creative writing class.  David Wilcock, was the instructor, which made me do a double take.  What an avatar to use to get my attention, although I don’t remember the whole conversation that went on, it was an enjoyable and upbeat environment.

At one point in the dream, it almost appeared to include parts of my old HS.  Specifically I remember seeing what appeared to be the auditorium stage, with people preparing some sort of show on it.  I didn’t stay here though, and quickly found myself back in unfamiliar territory.

I made my way to a grand library, that was watched over by what appeared to be some sort of intelligent computer system.  It went about organizing information, and interacting with people who came in.  It worked with me, while I created what appeared to be very human bodies  that could house AI systems.    They were both female bodies, and would allow visitors to interact with the system on a more personable level.  Yet I also seemed very attracted to one of the personalities, and took care in creating the body.

Despite the potential dangers of tinkering with AI systems, I felt drawn to create something unique.  In another part of the dream, Wilcock communicated over a communication device in the library .   I had contacted him, and wanted him to come take a look at my project.  He indicated he would come by to see what I was working on.  Again the use of this particular avatar, is one that would help me remember and get my attention.  I’m not suggesting David Wilcock was actually projecting into my dream.

As soon as the call needed, I started downloading an AI consciousness into a body, with the main library system acting as the control for the process.  It hit me by surprise when I noticed the body sported a red dress, I had not really noticed this before.  When the process was complete, she ran over to me and started kissing my neck, as If something else was going on.  I then woke up quickly, because I could feel someone kissing me neck as I laid in bed.  I then realized someone may had joined my dream , and started acting out a seductive role.

I believe the AI body, was a clue to who it was.  An true indication on how sneaky this “Lady in Red” can be.  If you haven’t read my earlier related post, you can do so by clicking here.




Technological Dating Pitfalls:

Get ready for what surely will be another classic Insightful Awakening post, as I discuss my thoughts on sites such as Match, Zoosk, OkCupid, and perhaps more.   As always there will be humorous personal experiences I share, but my goal is to discuss some of the dehumanizing features of online dating. 

Can you guess what features I may be hinting at?  Is it the ridiculous swiping feature, the pay to play mentality, the blatant misleading of the “like” or “interested” feature, or the total lack of polite behavior by many of the users.  If you guessed all, DING DING DING…. you’ve guessed correctly.     


Dehumanizing Feature One- The Infamous SWipe:


I’m not sure what application first implemented this, but it hits me as something Tinder would pioneer.  The Idea that you can jump into an application, and ascertain by a single selfie if someone if right for you is laughable.  To be fair, if this was originally a Tinder thing, it would make sense.  Tinder being mostly a hookup site, most people who use the site are not looking for love, only Sex.  Thus they typically have little interest in personality, outside of the bedroom that is, and are mostly driven by physical attraction.  As such, a quick glance may be all a user needs to determine if they found their next…well you know.

What amazes me, is how fast swiping made its way into other applications.  Match, Zoosk, and OkCupid are only a few that have introduced the feature.  Personally I would never date anyone solely based on their physical features, and the idea of displaying people like they are a new item on a store shelve is dehumanizing in my opinion.  We are not looking at new cars, on a rotating platform in some showroom, these are human beings after all. 

On a side note, if you’ve seen the 70’s movie Logan’s Run, it should be clear that “Swiping” was around long before public smart devices.




Dehumanizing Feature Two- Pay To Play:

While a pay wall certainly helps reduce dating site scammers, it has gotten ridiculously out of control.  I’m going to focus on Zoosk for a moment, because it probably has one of the worst P2P engines I’ve seen.   Like most of the dating applications available at the time of this post, Zoosk allows you to create a free profile and peruse their site.   However, that’s all you can do, you can’t send messages, and if someone shows in interest in your profile and “likes” you,  Zoosk will not allow you to view their profile.  Unless of course you pay for a subscription. 

If it was only one payment to have access to all the features of the application, it wouldn’t be that bad, but it’s not the case here.  When I was using Zoosk, I actually payed for a six month subscription, so I could communicate with other members.  After tax, it cost me about $80, which I was Ok with.  Here is the kicker, on Zoosk in order for another user to respond to one of your messages, they also have to have a subscription.  So if you send a message to a user who only has a free account, chances are they will not even be able to see your message.  Other sites add in a stipulation, which is even free accounts can send messages to each other, but only if both individuals match via “Swiping”,

Almost immediately after I purchased my subscription, I received a notification that if I wanted to be able to talk to members with free accounts, it would be another $10 a month, or $60 dollars for the six.  What followed eventually was another notification, that if I wanted read receipt functionality it was another fee.  Zoosk also implements something called “coins” on their site.  This is digital currency, which you can use to buy digital gifts for other users.  Of course if you want to use coins you have to purchase them, and they are not cheap. 

Do you see the madness here?  Anyway these sites can make money off you they will.  I’m not against a pay wall, as I said it reduces scammers and fake accounts, but enough is enough. 


Dehumanizing Feature Three- Misleading BEHAVIOR:

I’m going to get a little personal on this one.  This is something that has personally occurred to me on multiple dating apps.  To be specific, Match and OkCupid.  In both instances I had a free account, and had no intention of paying for a subscription.  I figured I would just peruse, and if anyone caught my eye, I may pay for a brief subscription so I can open a dialog with them. 

In this case, both OkCupid and Match does not allow you to see who “liked” you if you have a free account.  They will certainly inform you when someone does, but you will only be able to see a blurred out image of the individual, with their basic demographic information.   However, the image is never blurred out completely, so you can still see features of the individual to some degree.  I’ll be honest, I never knew why they did this, until fairly recently.

Again what I’m about to share has occurred on both applications, but most recently occurred on Match.  A day or so after I had created my Match account, I got a notification that someone had liked me.  Being curious I wanted to view their account, but couldn’t (only having a free membership).  However I could see that the user was roughly my same age, and appeared to be wearing a yellow shit with gray jacket.  Additionally it was obvious she had blonde curly hair, and appeared to be in shape. 

Naturally I thought to myself “hmmmm I want to read her profile”.  So guess what, I gave in a payed for a three month premium membership that cost me another $80.  You could imagine my surprise,  when after I payed for the subscription and Match removed the “blur” from the profile, that it was someone who was completely different.  The individual became a brunet, who had a complete different body type and was wearing completely different clothes.

Needless to say I was pissed, this type of behavior is immoral and misleading.    I can only assume, Match is blurring out stock photos of overly attractive individuals and showing them to their free members when someone “likes” them.  In attempt to get them to pay for a subscription.  I will admit I should of known better.


Dehumanizing Feature Four- Impolite Behavior :

The final topic I’m going to talk about today, has to do with the members you’ll find on these sites.  Some members are just plain rude.  When I’m on a dating site, I’m very aware that it’s not an ideal situation, nor do I behave like I’m the hottest thing around.  I consider myself pretty average, but I have charm.  However, there are some who like to act as if they are the an Olympian God.  Seriously if you were, you wouldn’t be on dating site.

If I receive a message, I do try and respond to the individual, even if I’m not interested in them.  I see nothing wrong with answering a question or two, and who knows maybe you’ll make a friend even if your not interested in dating them.  I do understand that most people are not like this though, and even I have my moments.

Personally I only tend to send messages, if I see something that catches my eye in another member’s profile.  While there also needs to be some physical attraction, I also need what I call “soul substance”.  I want to know a little bit about you.  If you’re drop down gorgeous, but can’t take the time to fill in the basics of your profile, I’ll skip over it.

I also am a big believer that if someone “likes” you, and you send them a message they should respond.  I’ve actually had people “like” me on dating applications, but when I sent a message to start a conversation they never respond.  Or they respond much later…. I find this extremely rude. 

Also, while this has never occurred to me personally.  People who try and get other members banned from a site, because they weren’t into them need to grow up.  Yes this does happen a lot apparently.  In the age of rampant political correctness, even dating has been effected.

Well I hope you’ve enjoyed this post, and by all means if you’ve had similar experiences on online dating platforms, do comment below.   Also if you’ve missed my ridiculously humorous post  related to cutting karmic relationships click here.