THe Crystal Cave:

She sat silent at the head of a crystalline pool, eyes closed, and with one arm resting effortlessly by her side.   The other struggling to stay slightly elevated, while her fingertips caressed her neck.  Colorful orbs danced around her body, time itself began to slow, and the crystal cave itself acknowledged her.   

The sounds of the rushing ocean outside the cave, and the immense light radiating from the nearby crystals no longer concerned her.  She had been training for years, to reach such a state of bliss, and it was in the scared cave of her people that she finally accomplished this pivotal goal.

Her mind now in sync with the cosmic web, a truth that didn’t enter the consciousness of her people until after the Great Awakening, allowed her to transverse space and time without taking one step.

However while she was able to make the initial connection, she had never gotten much further.  What she did get, was what she called “random images” of places and people that confused her.  

Yet, she had been told by her city elder that all would make sense soon enough.  Yet Aurora was never one to wait and it was because of this, that she now sat in her favorite place, contemplating the nature of the web.

The only thing she truly knew, was this was only the beginning of her journey.  How symbolic it was, that it would begin in the Crystal Cave of what was now called Terra.




Dream Journal 03-2020:

The “Lady In Red” makes an appearance in this dream.  As she has done in others over the years, and every time she does odd things occur.  I cannot help to be drawn to her, this woman, she knows me and I her.  Yet the mischievous nature she comes with, can bend even the most strong willed at times.

In one instance I jumped out of my bed from a sound sleep, and actually saw her standing in my bedroom.  In some dreams, she is in red and I’m in blue, indicating a profound connection.  This is a short dream, but I thought I’d share it nonetheless.


The Lady In Red and The Library Project:



In this dream I was in an advanced city, everything looked sleek and clean.  A connected metropolis that fades from memory, even as I write this down at this very moment.  It was here that I found myself in a classroom, taking a creative writing class.  David Wilcock, was the instructor, which made me do a double take.  What an avatar to use to get my attention, although I don’t remember the whole conversation that went on, it was an enjoyable and upbeat environment.

At one point in the dream, it almost appeared to include parts of my old HS.  Specifically I remember seeing what appeared to be the auditorium stage, with people preparing some sort of show on it.  I didn’t stay here though, and quickly found myself back in unfamiliar territory.

I made my way to a grand library, that was watched over by what appeared to be some sort of intelligent computer system.  It went about organizing information, and interacting with people who came in.  It worked with me, while I created what appeared to be very human bodies  that could house AI systems.    They were both female bodies, and would allow visitors to interact with the system on a more personable level.  Yet I also seemed very attracted to one of the personalities, and took care in creating the body.

Despite the potential dangers of tinkering with AI systems, I felt drawn to create something unique.  In another part of the dream, Wilcock communicated over a communication device in the library .   I had contacted him, and wanted him to come take a look at my project.  He indicated he would come by to see what I was working on.  Again the use of this particular avatar, is one that would help me remember and get my attention.  I’m not suggesting David Wilcock was actually projecting into my dream.

As soon as the call needed, I started downloading an AI consciousness into a body, with the main library system acting as the control for the process.  It hit me by surprise when I noticed the body sported a red dress, I had not really noticed this before.  When the process was complete, she ran over to me and started kissing my neck, as If something else was going on.  I then woke up quickly, because I could feel someone kissing me neck as I laid in bed.  I then realized someone may had joined my dream , and started acting out a seductive role.

I believe the AI body, was a clue to who it was.  An true indication on how sneaky this “Lady in Red” can be.  If you haven’t read my earlier related post, you can do so by clicking here.




Technological Dating Pitfalls:

Get ready for what surely will be another classic Insightful Awakening post, as I discuss my thoughts on sites such as Match, Zoosk, OkCupid, and perhaps more.   As always there will be humorous personal experiences I share, but my goal is to discuss some of the dehumanizing features of online dating. 

Can you guess what features I may be hinting at?  Is it the ridiculous swiping feature, the pay to play mentality, the blatant misleading of the “like” or “interested” feature, or the total lack of polite behavior by many of the users.  If you guessed all, DING DING DING…. you’ve guessed correctly.     


Dehumanizing Feature One- The Infamous SWipe:


I’m not sure what application first implemented this, but it hits me as something Tinder would pioneer.  The Idea that you can jump into an application, and ascertain by a single selfie if someone if right for you is laughable.  To be fair, if this was originally a Tinder thing, it would make sense.  Tinder being mostly a hookup site, most people who use the site are not looking for love, only Sex.  Thus they typically have little interest in personality, outside of the bedroom that is, and are mostly driven by physical attraction.  As such, a quick glance may be all a user needs to determine if they found their next…well you know.

What amazes me, is how fast swiping made its way into other applications.  Match, Zoosk, and OkCupid are only a few that have introduced the feature.  Personally I would never date anyone solely based on their physical features, and the idea of displaying people like they are a new item on a store shelve is dehumanizing in my opinion.  We are not looking at new cars, on a rotating platform in some showroom, these are human beings after all. 

On a side note, if you’ve seen the 70’s movie Logan’s Run, it should be clear that “Swiping” was around long before public smart devices.




Dehumanizing Feature Two- Pay To Play:

While a pay wall certainly helps reduce dating site scammers, it has gotten ridiculously out of control.  I’m going to focus on Zoosk for a moment, because it probably has one of the worst P2P engines I’ve seen.   Like most of the dating applications available at the time of this post, Zoosk allows you to create a free profile and peruse their site.   However, that’s all you can do, you can’t send messages, and if someone shows in interest in your profile and “likes” you,  Zoosk will not allow you to view their profile.  Unless of course you pay for a subscription. 

If it was only one payment to have access to all the features of the application, it wouldn’t be that bad, but it’s not the case here.  When I was using Zoosk, I actually payed for a six month subscription, so I could communicate with other members.  After tax, it cost me about $80, which I was Ok with.  Here is the kicker, on Zoosk in order for another user to respond to one of your messages, they also have to have a subscription.  So if you send a message to a user who only has a free account, chances are they will not even be able to see your message.  Other sites add in a stipulation, which is even free accounts can send messages to each other, but only if both individuals match via “Swiping”,

Almost immediately after I purchased my subscription, I received a notification that if I wanted to be able to talk to members with free accounts, it would be another $10 a month, or $60 dollars for the six.  What followed eventually was another notification, that if I wanted read receipt functionality it was another fee.  Zoosk also implements something called “coins” on their site.  This is digital currency, which you can use to buy digital gifts for other users.  Of course if you want to use coins you have to purchase them, and they are not cheap. 

Do you see the madness here?  Anyway these sites can make money off you they will.  I’m not against a pay wall, as I said it reduces scammers and fake accounts, but enough is enough. 


Dehumanizing Feature Three- Misleading BEHAVIOR:

I’m going to get a little personal on this one.  This is something that has personally occurred to me on multiple dating apps.  To be specific, Match and OkCupid.  In both instances I had a free account, and had no intention of paying for a subscription.  I figured I would just peruse, and if anyone caught my eye, I may pay for a brief subscription so I can open a dialog with them. 

In this case, both OkCupid and Match does not allow you to see who “liked” you if you have a free account.  They will certainly inform you when someone does, but you will only be able to see a blurred out image of the individual, with their basic demographic information.   However, the image is never blurred out completely, so you can still see features of the individual to some degree.  I’ll be honest, I never knew why they did this, until fairly recently.

Again what I’m about to share has occurred on both applications, but most recently occurred on Match.  A day or so after I had created my Match account, I got a notification that someone had liked me.  Being curious I wanted to view their account, but couldn’t (only having a free membership).  However I could see that the user was roughly my same age, and appeared to be wearing a yellow shit with gray jacket.  Additionally it was obvious she had blonde curly hair, and appeared to be in shape. 

Naturally I thought to myself “hmmmm I want to read her profile”.  So guess what, I gave in a payed for a three month premium membership that cost me another $80.  You could imagine my surprise,  when after I payed for the subscription and Match removed the “blur” from the profile, that it was someone who was completely different.  The individual became a brunet, who had a complete different body type and was wearing completely different clothes.

Needless to say I was pissed, this type of behavior is immoral and misleading.    I can only assume, Match is blurring out stock photos of overly attractive individuals and showing them to their free members when someone “likes” them.  In attempt to get them to pay for a subscription.  I will admit I should of known better.


Dehumanizing Feature Four- Impolite Behavior :

The final topic I’m going to talk about today, has to do with the members you’ll find on these sites.  Some members are just plain rude.  When I’m on a dating site, I’m very aware that it’s not an ideal situation, nor do I behave like I’m the hottest thing around.  I consider myself pretty average, but I have charm.  However, there are some who like to act as if they are the an Olympian God.  Seriously if you were, you wouldn’t be on dating site.

If I receive a message, I do try and respond to the individual, even if I’m not interested in them.  I see nothing wrong with answering a question or two, and who knows maybe you’ll make a friend even if your not interested in dating them.  I do understand that most people are not like this though, and even I have my moments.

Personally I only tend to send messages, if I see something that catches my eye in another member’s profile.  While there also needs to be some physical attraction, I also need what I call “soul substance”.  I want to know a little bit about you.  If you’re drop down gorgeous, but can’t take the time to fill in the basics of your profile, I’ll skip over it.

I also am a big believer that if someone “likes” you, and you send them a message they should respond.  I’ve actually had people “like” me on dating applications, but when I sent a message to start a conversation they never respond.  Or they respond much later…. I find this extremely rude. 

Also, while this has never occurred to me personally.  People who try and get other members banned from a site, because they weren’t into them need to grow up.  Yes this does happen a lot apparently.  In the age of rampant political correctness, even dating has been effected.

Well I hope you’ve enjoyed this post, and by all means if you’ve had similar experiences on online dating platforms, do comment below.   Also if you’ve missed my ridiculously humorous post  related to cutting karmic relationships click here.  




Dream Journal 02:

The Dreamscape is often a complex layered reality, that we take for granted.  We act like the entire thing is created by our own will, but in reality there can be far more going on. While parts of it are surly the result of what we are manifesting, hidden influences are able “join in” as long as they don’t violate freewill.  Thus,  not everything or everyone is what is seems in a particular dream.  This Dream Journal post focuses on external forces.


The Dreamscape Hunter:


Image From Alien Isolation

In this particular Dreamscape I found myself in various locations, but there were points at which I clearly knew things were not exactly as they seemed.  In one instance, I was running with this woman through a dark landscape.  We stopped to rest and she asked me to turn around so she could see my back.


Part of me wondered, if this was because I had been thinking, I wanted someone to check my back.  I’ve often suspected I had an etheric implant in my back, but for what purpose I wasn’t sure.  This may sound crazy to some, especially if you’re not familiar with such topics, but there are various races of beings who tag people.  Either to keep track of them, or for other purposes.


As I started to turn around, so  she could take a look, I felt uneasy, as I like to remain aware of who is around it at all times.  Suddenly I heard a voice, expressing it’s annoyance.  I then felt someone was running straight towards my back, I turned just in time to reach back and catch them in mid flight. When I caught it I clearly felt humanoid legs and thighs, and was actually a little turned on by how smooth they were.  However, the voice I heard was very similar to a an experience I had in 2016 with a reptilian being.  Interestingly enough I had an inkling that this was one groups tagging people.


The next thing that occurred, is I took off running though this environment again, and I do believe the woman was still with me.  We ended up jumping to a different point, perhaps using some sort of portal, but I don’t remember.  After the jump I found myself standing in what appeared to be a kitchen, which almost looked like the kitchen that was in one of my childhood friend’s old house. 


There was a a narrow looking bedroom door coming off from the “kitchen”, that leaded into a dark bedroom.  I ran at the door and kicked it, thinking we could make continue into the room.  However, the door only moved a little bit, enough where I could hear some creature on the other side of the door, something that made me think of the movie Alien.  It was at this point when I woke up.  When I reflected on this creature, The song “Hunter” featuring John Mark McMillan came to mind.  I’ll embed the song below.  This put me on edge, as  I’ve had dreams about helping create creatures like this is during another lifetime, on another world, and they were considered extremely deadly.  This uneasiness is what caused me to wake up.






Gangs Of The Dreamscape:

When I fell back asleep, my dreams were typical.  In one of them I was driving on a highway, and I felt a presence behind me in the car, which was talking to me.  I realized that there was probably something in my bedroom, very close to my body trying to communicate.  In fact I had a feeling that something was hovering around my back, and indicated it should leave.  Which seemed to cause the experience to end.


I then found myself in a mall, watching this girl being bothered by a guy.  She called to me from a distance and wanted me to do something.  I used telekinetic abilities to stop him, specifically I manifested situations where she could get away.  he wasn’t happy about it, and threatened me for intervening.    


He clearly was the leader of some kind of “Gang”.   I actually manifested security forces to take him away.  However, as he left he told his group to basically make me bleed.  One of them started boxing with me, but it didn’t last long because we started talking about another group that was in the environment.  One that weren’t what they appeared to be.  After our conversation I woke up.


Overall these dreams were intense, and at least during parts of them much more was going on then appeared to be.  Also in some of my dreams lately, I have been creating different types of weapons for defending myself with.  Some are very much like the Star Wars Light Saber.  The creature in the first part of my dream,  is one of concern, as I seem to know what it is but can’t fully remember it.  It does remind me of a cross between the Alien in the classic movie, and the aliens in Edge of Tomorrow.  The creation of beings like this, will be discussed in a novel I’m working on.  Needless to say, imagine a being that travels through the unseen realms, and can come into the physical to complete it’s task, and then vanish.  Only in myths will we find clues to it here.


I hope you enjoyed this dream  journal post.  As I indicated in dream journal post 01, I’m going to start focusing more on dreams for a while.  I will of course, still post about other topics when I feel it’s appropriate. 




Dream Journal:

It has been some time, since I’ve felt the need to record my dreams, or at least what I remember of  them. However, I feel it it’s time to begin again, so without delay here we go.  This Dream Journal post focuses on a deluge.


Deluge on a Windowsill:

I found myself back at my old house, my mother’s house, only there was this “ascension machine” that was located on the second level of the house. There were family members on the first level, all watching TV and hanging out.  The TV, was one of the older types, with a bulky back end, not a flat screen.  I found myself out of my body in the dream, or perhaps I just couldn’t been seen.


I realized that there was someone else who present in the house, who was trying to use this “ascension machine” for some unwise purpose. The machine itself didn’t seem to be located physically in the dream, but was seemed to be out of phase from the rest of the dream.  They were using it to gather energy from various beings and manifest it, into the physical reality.  I vaguely remember telling whoever it was, it was a bad idea, and I could feel all sorts of energy surging through me when they used the machine.  It seemed to have an affect on the environment.


Eventually I made my way down stairs, where everyone was, but they couldn’t see me.  I even put my hand on my father’s stomach as he was sitting in a chair to see if he would notice.  I’m not sure if he was feeling well,or there was something wrong with his stomach.  Something seemed to be off.  Eventually I found a way to communicate with them by writing on the TV screen with my finger.  Just as you write on a window when there is frost on it.  It got their attention, but I soon moved into the kitchen, and then onto the back deck of of the house.


The amount of rain coming down was extreme, and I couldn’t believe it.  It felt like I wasn’t in a typical environment. Also one of my friends who passed away over 10 years ago, was on the deck as well.  I don’t recall what we spoke about but something about coming back, or he would of liked to come back, as well as what was going on with the weather.  During the conversation, my mom opened a kitchen window to look out at the rain, and on the windowsill there was the two words written, one above the other.  The first word was Deluge, and the one below it seemed to be a reference to fire.  When I turned back around ,my friend had vanished. The water intensified, but the colors were amazing, I even saw what appeared to be flying fish like animals feeding of flowers.


I called for a guide to come, or an aspect of my higher-self . But a “person” didn’t show up, instead I noticed an intense light in the distance, like the Sun was very intense.  Additionally on my neighbors car, a fox appeared out of nowhere, and it just sat on the top of the car, getting soaked, not caring one bit.  I “floated” over to the car (yes at this point I moved by floating), and tried to get the fox to move out of the rain, as now I noticed the area was flooding.  However, it refused to move, and eventually slid off the car, into the water below. I tried to catch it, but it slipped out of my hands.


I was amazed when I saw it just floating to the street, without a care in the world.  Unhurt and in a state of non-worry.  I moved down the street and could see how intense the flooding was, it was as if a massive force of water had moved in from no-where.  As I moved through it, things became blurry, and I eventually woke up.


The Fox in the dream caught me by surprise, as they usually react quickly and adapt to situations. However, the fox literately didn’t do anything but go with the process, go with the flow as it were.


Water Over The Horizon:

This was a quick dream segment. I was driving with my dad through an area that had large hills/cliffs on each side of the road.  The road was like the valley with elevation on each side of it.  All of a sudden we saw large waves of water washing over the cliffs.  As this occurred I was no longer in the car, but had a vantage point from that of the water as if came falling over cliffs.  Then I woke up.





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